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MAY 6, 2008 @ 03:07 PM

May rocks. It seems that almost *everyone* in my life that's close to me has a birthday in May (myself included) which is kind of odd, considering there are 12 months in the yr. Why everyone I love is crammed into just one month will remain a mystery.

Everyone is having such a difficult time lately, why is that? With the only common factor being "myself", I've got to wonder if maybe I'm just ... bad luck? I dont even know if I believe in "luck", but what else do u call something that happens, be it positive or negative, that's out of your control?

I hate being kicked while I'm already down. Sometimes the kicking is repetitive. Sometimes the kicking is accompanied by being spit in the face, or a nice "curby" resulting in the loss of your entire row of front teeth, and also a baseball bat smashing your face in. It's times like these where all you want to do is lie there and recover, no matter how long it takes. But everyone around you is continuously screaming "GET UP!! GET UP!!", and you're just thinking:

"listen, man .. I've got 2 broken legs, a missing arm and a shattered skull, how the bloody HELL am I supposed to get up right now?! On my OWN, no less?" blackeyed

I think inside everyone there is the strongest person in the world, but also the weakest person in the world. I'm sending my most powerful, Ashtastic vibes to everyone who has to get off the ground and stand on broken legs right now.


So yeah, I'll be turning ... 21. For the .. 5th time? 6th time? lol! Shhh! You're only as old as u feel! Only as old as you FEEL!! blush

Q's

~Do u think that beauty can/does effect a persons success in life? Do you typically go for ppl that are what is considered "conventionally beautiful"? What do YOU define as "beauty" in your own words/terms?
~Have u ever received a service for something (like for instance .. eaten in a restaurant) and realized *after* u received the service that u left your wallet at home? (haha Ive always wondered what one does in a scenario such as this!)
~Whats the worst joke that was played on you or that you played on someone else?
~Post a photo of something here for whatever reason ... make sure it's entertaining in some fashion wink

R.I.P Neo, u are forever loved.



R.I.P Parker, I thought we still had more time.

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dark_chylde

dark_chylde

HOPEFUL

Manchester, CT

MAY 06, 2008 03:12 PM



I think inside everyone there is the strongest person in the world, but also the weakest person in the world. I'm sending my most powerful, Ashtastic vibes to everyone who has to get off the ground and stand on broken legs right now.



Even though I don't know you, these words hit home. Thank You. kiss

Vanessa

Vanessa

SUICIDEGIRL

New Mexico, USA

MAY 06, 2008 03:21 PM

Staying away from this site, because though I LOVE you and all my other friends, I don't like it here anymore.

But I was in LA al last month, I'm now working to get money to go to Japan for my bday in July, my personal site is going up may 31st so my webmaster and I have been working on that, I'm doing a thing for High Times magazne (WEE! I know you'll love thatwink) lots of crazy stuff.

And my baby (my dog Bowie) is turning 3 thursday so I'm getting all sentimental because he's not a puppy anymorefrown
I also have aDr. appt that day because I'm STILL sick even though I was on antibiotics for 2 weeks, it didnt do a damn thing and I dont want to get pneumonia.

I love you momma.

_TheFred_

_TheFred_

Chicago, IL
February 2004

MAY 06, 2008 03:26 PM

hey girl, how u been otherwise?

I don't *think* i answered your q's the last time, so I'll answered this one to make it up.

--I think beauty can affect a person's life. Especially if the people around them are that fucking shallow to look beyond the superficial then yeah, it can.

--Fortunately, I've yet to have that problem. Though, like, today, I arrived at work and realized I left my wallet at home, hence no lunch for me:sad:

--I'm pretty a joke was played on me, but I blocked it out to prevent a violent outburst

--

SPOILERS! (Click to view)
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because I like the morbidbiggrinbiggrinbiggrinbiggrinbiggrin

I apologize in advance.

jeffyjr

jeffyjr

Webster, FL
December 2007

MAY 06, 2008 04:28 PM

How have you been beautiful? Me I've been better I'am in PTA wich is a military training area on the big island that makes up HI. It sucks cold at night and early in the morning and get this 1 of the mountains has snow on the top.Worse of all my job is working with ammo no forklift so were loading and unloading 40 50 60 boxes of ammo. You have no idea they crazy,stupid, and tiersome stuff were doing. And to answer you're question Bell or Bellica is someone here on SG

Katalina

Katalina

SUICIDEGIRL

Hawaii, USA

MAY 06, 2008 04:34 PM

Hope all is well. Hope you start off your Mayfair celebrations with a bang!!

AcidEvangelist

AcidEvangelist

Minneapolis, MN
March 2004

MAY 06, 2008 04:49 PM

Dainty

Dainty

I'm lost
August 2007

MAY 06, 2008 05:31 PM

Today is my sisters birthday hahaa.
Sorry 2 of your ratties passed away ((hugs))

~Do u think that beauty can/does effect a persons success in life? Yes
Do you typically go for ppl that are what is considered "conventionally beautiful"? No, I go for people who I am attracted to inside and out
What do YOU define as "beauty" in your own words/terms? Beauty is the ability to see the brighter side of someone even when they don't, and no matter what it looks like you see the best out of it/him/her.
~Have u ever received a service for something (like for instance .. eaten in a restaurant) and realized *after* u received the service that u left your wallet at home? (haha Ive always wondered what one does in a scenario such as this!) Never happened to me
~Whats the worst joke that was played on you or that you played on someone else? I told my friend her boyfriend was outside and she ran out and when she saw he wasn't there she looked so devestated that I felt awful!
~Post a photo of something here for whatever reason ... make sure it's entertaining in some fashion wink

Turbulence

Turbulence

Austria
November 2005

MAY 06, 2008 05:34 PM

RIP Neo and Parker ...

Hope you see better days soon smile

* what you you define success in life. money?
* just perverse stuff comes up my wicked mind wink
* i wrote goodbye email to a close friend in the name of his other close friends, and i copied their style of speaking - they basically went: hey you leave, oh well, bye. but i took care another friend was around while he read it, but he was totally disturbed for 1-2 minutes.



I'm a rat BTW wink

I have not hot test going on - lol - but you are HOT anyways smile

xxx

Ticktockman

Ticktockman

Raleigh, NC
April 2006

MAY 06, 2008 05:45 PM

Heh, I had to go back and look at that comment. It was definitely one of my "insomniastic and high on Red Bull and turpentine" kind of nights. Awesome. So many questions to answer!

what else do u call something that happens, be it positive or negative, that's out of your control?

Asshole. Call it asshole. As in: "Goddamn it you asshole!" Or maybe "Wow, that asshole really came through this time." I hear 'pondscumfucker' works pretty well, too.

"listen, man .. I've got 2 broken legs, a missing arm and a shattered skull, how the bloody HELL am I supposed to get up right now?! On my OWN, no less?"

Take a page from the black knight, and bite their kneecaps off. Missing limbs? Only a flesh wound! Go at the world with your very SOUL.

--Looks definitely help. Some people may even get by on them, but the end they achieve doesn't seem to be what they really want. I tend to go for odd beauties, but what I find attractive seems wildly inconsistent (from that plain & mundane girl in tonight's class to a variety of gothic/punk darlings). After a certain point, looks just don't matter though. There's a threshold after which I'm only interested in what's on the inside and how that gels with my own Self.

--I once took a girl to the movies, arrived, and found out that my wallet was empty. I blamed my brother, but damn that was embarrassing. She paid for the flick, but we never went out again. Never even considered asking.

--In college, there was a spot on the floor where, if you thumped it hard enough, it'd set off the alarm in the room below me. I hated the guys who lived there, so regularly set my alarm for 5:30am... ARRR!!! My remote could learn other remote's functions, so I snuck in their room once and did just that. I'd walk by their room now and then and turn off their stereo. Baffled the shit out of them.

--Hmm, my best photos are at work. Will have to change that.

In the middle of exams but kicking ass. This weekend I'll be an absolute drunkard on the finest wine I own. I'll save a toast for you, my dear. Cheers,

-TTm

Dr_Lizardo

Dr_Lizardo

Indian Orchard, MA
February 2006

MAY 06, 2008 05:58 PM

Yeah beauty or ugliness definitely do affect people's potential for success, just how it is.

I've forgotten my wallet at times, but I was never so careless as to order something in a restaurant and not have my wallet on me.

Worst joke ever played on me wasn't really much of a joke, back in junior high school someone dropped a cold snotball down the back of my shirt. Those weren't happy times overall.

I've got a march birthday and have had multiple girlfriends with march birthdays, which makes it complicated to remember exactly who has what birthday.

Kornalina

Kornalina

SUICIDEGIRL

I'm lost

MAY 06, 2008 06:34 PM

black xs is the new paco ravane perfume..

yeah.. im sad.. bc it has no chance.. .(

dark_chylde

dark_chylde

HOPEFUL

Manchester, CT

MAY 06, 2008 06:38 PM

Thanks Ash. Your words mean alot.

Dr_Lizardo

Dr_Lizardo

Indian Orchard, MA
February 2006

MAY 06, 2008 06:41 PM

fucking computer just lost my reply to your comment.

Sorry about your rats. maybe if you live very virtuously you can reincarnate as a rat.

The job I have now is local delivery where I go to work and come home every day. I don't like the early hours and long commute. It's very physically demanding. I drive maybe two hours a day, and spend ten hours throwing soda around, hauling it up and down stairs on a hand truck, stocking coolers, and so forth. Doing home heating oil or propane woudn't be so physically demanding and exhausting. Hopefullly I could find a job closer to home.

The a350 came out very recently. It's been available on ebay for a few weeks but just made it to stores at the end of april.

Actually my other camera is more damaged than I thought, It can't focus beyond maybe 20 feet or so.

But anyway, I like the a350 because it has lots of in-camera adjustments. White balance, saturation, contrast and sharpness are some of the adjustments it has. It allows me to get the photograph right when I take it rather than having to rework it in photosphop. I enjoy working with cameras vastly more than I enjoy working with computers. I have photoshop, a free copy that a friend gave me and I only use it to resize photos for the web and I find even that to be tedious as all hell. But I guess that's not really a creative usage.

Jamila

Jamila

HOPEFUL

USA

MAY 06, 2008 06:59 PM

I love that one smile
No, I had a gum graft. It hurt like a bitch. Still hurts a week later.
How are your teeth issues?

Rubix

Rubix

SUICIDEGIRL

Quebec, Canada

MAY 06, 2008 07:18 PM

ya school is killer expensive in the States huh!?

ya summer is definitely here- its hot! i dont mind the heat- its the sweating!!

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