I guess this is my mandatory last post in the year 2012, and I must say it’s been a good one. Most of it was routine, going to work, coming home and other stuff, which I won’t bother you with. But then becoming a Suicide Girl happened. Now you might not understand how big this is for me. It is huge, life changing. It wasn’t because that’s something I’ve always dreamed of, even though I’ve always liked SG and what they represent. It wasn’t the title or the attention I got with it. It wasn’t and isn’t about my ego. It’s about being a part of something and feeling like I belong somewhere after feeling lost as hell for the last 5 years.

I moved to SA from Croatia all alone. No friends, no family. True, I met new people and I do have a family here that I’m not related to by blood, but it’s not the same thing. I left everyone behind, and even though we chat via Skype and talk on Facebook, we have drifted apart. People that were and always will be important in my life moved on without me. I don’t blame or resent, I’ve done the same thing. Living here almost on my own has alienated me in a way. And then came SG, a place where I have not only met loads of good friends, but became a part of something bigger. This website and you guys are my virtual home away from home, if that makes sense. You make me laugh and cry and giggle. You are basically what I’ve been missing this whole time. So thank you everyone for being kind and supportive, as well as silly and weird. Thank you for accepting me as one of your own. I don’t know what the next year will bring, but I’m more positive than ever because I’ve got all of you on my side. You know, in case there’s a zombie apocalypse and my sorry ass needs to be saved or I burn another batch of Christmas cookies and I need a better recipe.

Love you guys!

(My heart sign looks more like a potato, so you also get a not-so-enthusiastic thumb up)