I like it

I think I love you.
Love is real - that's about the only thing I'm sure of.
Stay real
in whatever reality you choose.

are you back in toronto yet???? lets go to a show i have like 5 sets of tix right now!!!

You would have loved watching me this morning. I was taking the dogs out, and wiped out on the ice again (landed on the same spot, too -- oww!). I can't even blame the dogs - just my own inherent instability. It was pretty funny, though. I was going to put the dogs out on their runs, but the leads are trapped in the ice, so that wasn't an option.

I'm sorry you missed me with the mail, too. I was actually dressed (it was in the evening, about 9 PM or so), but I'm sure it would have looked really interesting to anyone watching. Especially since I was wearing my ear-hat that Noir made me. I love that thing!

I think you and Lily need to hitch down this way and we'll shoot a set together.

Always remember
A chicken is just an eggs way
Of making more eggs

hahahaha -32 isn't beautiful.The sun shining was beautiful.Although i love winter so -32 doesn't really bother me.hahaha

He'd punk as many punks as a punk could punk if a punk could punk a punk.

Why do you think I liked it so much.

Aww, if I cut the power I couldn't talk to you. The internet needs moving electrons.

But yes, you've made me realize just how I've changed over the years. When I was your age, I could have left with little more than the clothes on my back. I had no attachments I couldn't break. Now, 25 years later, I've attached these many chains to myself:

My wife and son -- these are the strongest chains, of course
My home -- I could walk away from it, but only at a significant financial cost
My "stuff" -- Ditto, though there is much I would miss now
My job -- I'm more than ready to ditch this, but my current lifestyle demands the income
My friends -- I'm chained only by how it would hurt them if I disappeared -- chains I could break.

The six heads of Scylla?

For all these reasons, I just can't bring myself to hit the open road as a change of lifestyle.

In a year and a half my son goes off to college, most likely out of state. I could conceivably take a "sabbatical" and leave all these chains, knowing that I'll be coming back to them when the sabbatical is over. This drops the chains to this:

My wife -- I don't know what would happen here. I don't think she'd want to do it herself, but she might go along with me. Alternatively she might put up with me being gone if she sees it means so much to me (does it?). On the other hand, it could cause a deep hurt for her -- something I'm loathe to do.

Income -- My wife works, and the house is paid for. She might be able to do ok on her own, especially if my son's college bills are handled by other means. Still, there would need to be something to fall back on.

Perhaps I could get a grant to do this sabbatical. Perhaps we could decide to take the money from our savings -- especially if my mother has passed on (which is likely in the next couple years I think) as there will be a significant inheritance. This would require it to be an "investment" itself, though. Not only in my peace of mind but in the production of a book or show based on my journals and photos from the sabbatical. Counting on that income would require a big leap of faith.

Charybdis?

So... I guess it could happen, in a way. Perhaps that's the closest I can come anymore. I'm not the person I was 25 years ago.

But then again, I am.

Stuck between Scylla and Charybdis.

Perhaps this is the wrong Greek myth. Perhaps I should stuff your ears with beeswax and use these chains to attach me to the mast.

So is this a journey of personal enlightenment? Or am I just hearing the Siren's song?

The song is truly beautiful.


P.S. - thanks for putting up with my rambling.

Thanks, Doll <3

yeah that sucks.



i met Geoff Rowley once. didn't do much for my balance though sadly.

jellyfish scare the shit out of me.

Been reading the dog thread. Geez! I hope those people treat their dogs better than they treated you. I happen to agree with them (my dogs are neutered, and so am I ), but I also agree that you were the most open-minded of the bunch. Geez. Sometime if you want to discuss it without rancor, let me know. In the meantime, I may disagree with you, but I respect your opinion, and your right to have it.

I'm working on the plans for the sabbatical. Looking at covering 48 - 50 states over the course of a year. Four separate loops - one each season. If I can find funding, it might just happen. If not.... well, it might happen anyway, just differently.

Warm thoughts your direction!

* * * * *

So we'll go no more a-roving
So late into the night,
Though the heart be still as loving,
And the moon be still as bright.

For the sword outwears its sheath,
And the soul outwears the breast,
And the heart must pause to breathe,
And love itself have rest.

Though the night was made for loving,
And the day returns too soon,
Yet we'll go no more a-roving
By the light of the moon.

-- George Gordon, Lord Byron

Sorry I missed your last couple entries.

I really enjoyed them though.

Hope you're doing well.