a wee baby bump


if we have a boy, we are leaning on naming him Julian
Justin is another choice..I have liked that name ever since I saw, ''The Secret Of Nimh''


there are some girl names that we are thinking of, but nothing has really stuck as of yet..maybe Julia..I actually think the name January is kind of cute too..in a Wednesday Adams sort of way

we are trying to stick with the letter J as Jeremy's parent's both have names that start with a J
and being that this baby's brother's name is Trail..I would like the names to somewhat compliment one another...Trail and Julian soounds nice, don't you think?

not sure if I will be big enough on halloween, but I thought of wearing a half shirt and drawing a lightning bolt on my stomach and going as Lillian Potter

I did have prior engagements to be a zombie stripper for Night Of The Living Dead [The Musical]
not so sure about the pregnant zombie stripper..it may just look like dead girl bloat..haha

what is everyone dressing up as?
make sure to take photos...I love halloween pics!

baby wishlist
and
baby registry

I am also selling prints again..let me know if you are interested
there are some in my for sale folder..and I will add more in a day or so
xoxoxo

brrrrr...I don't know why I ever make smooties...I AM FREEZING..there is little in this world that I hate more than being cold...oh yeah, it looks like split pea soup..but it tastes great...besides, I was craving fruit something fierce

I am about 2 months along now..and just started looking at baby stuff and things for the nursery
I really love the black and white developmental toys for infants..I had them for Trail and he was fascinated by them..and it was all that seemed to interest him as far as toys go..

I decided to go dark again..thanx for the input..I am going to try to match my roots as much as possible, the last thing I want to do during pregnancy is to have to smell hair dye every other month..I may try henna..regardless, I will post pictures

Silent Hill: Homecoming is out tomorrow..I have been waiting for this for so long

you have no idea how happy this makes me..and how creeped out I will be for the next couple weeks

speaking of...I saw "The Strangers" at the dollar show last night..it was better than I had excpected..it actually made me scream out loud at one point..which isn't saying much..I get scared pretty easily..it took me a week to finish the last 50 pages of "The Shining" only because I remembered how much the movie scared me and I kept putting it off and I still refuse to see the ending of "Rec"

and last but not least
Remedy...shot by Cherry goes into member review October 13th



I am excited for this to go up and am so glad that I was given the chance to work with Cherry..I have said it before, but she has such an amazing presence..I just liked being around her..have you seen all of the sets she has been cranking out lately? incredible..I will post links later

insomnia is a bitch..and any problems with spelling need to be ignored..I am going on 4 hours of sleep

boredom from bed rest is really geting old, I am however getting better..the bleeding has slowed down quite a bit so I can't complain

tonight was cool though..some friends came by and everyone played Rock Band 2...Aqualung is such a great song, I forgot how much I love it...which brings me to music...when Trail was in the womb..I always played music for him, so I am starting to put a playlist together for the new little one

off the top of my head...all these artist have a calm, magical quality which seems perfect
Bjork
Queen
Kaada

those are just a few...throw me any suggestions..we would appreciate it

I look tired..I know

can you see a hint of baby belly yet?

this baby is going to eat more frozen yogurt then me and Alyk combined in the past year


he brang me flowers..

too sweet


pregnant women are advised to refrain from lightening thier hair ..this sucks as I finally have my hair the color that I wanted and my roots are starting to bug me..but I was curious anyway..do you prefer me darker or lighter? I may try to see if I can just wait it out..


or


goodnight kitties....have fun sleping and know that I am jealous
xoxoxoxoxoxox

bed rest sucks...I am not used to this, like I am not in pain or anything so just lying around all day makes me feel lazy..you have no idea how bad I want to exercise, that's all I miss...not drinking, not going out and seeing friends..right now, I just want to use up some energy

since the er I have been out of the house like 3 times..CashCow made a mini bed in the car and we went to the drive in..that was cool..we saw Tropic Thunder..was ok..there wasn't a huge selection to pick from

then CashCow pushed me around in a wheelchair at Meijer..it made me feel like Tom Cruise in Born On The Fourth Of July..I even had an army coat and sunglasses on and hadn't brushed my hair in a few days...hot


I can walk, obviously..but the reason I was in er was due to some bleeding and I guess even walking is a bit much for right now..what I had was technically a threatened miscarriage..doesn't sound too pretty, huh? I guess I just need to be patient and bide my time while my body strengthens up a bit..silly, weak me

pregnant women have the craziest dreams...I dreamt that I was making out with some girl in a sinking ship trying to talk her into using..a..um...big strap on, and the dream the night before was just as trashy..what the hell? hormones...whore moans

so..looks like Home Again isn't going to make it up on the front page, sucks..I really like the set a lot..I still think member review is a cool idea..I like that we have more options artistically, but I do hate pimping my set..I think after this blog..I am done..I think most of the people that read this already know it's there anyhow..






xoxoxoxoxoxoxox

I spent last night at the hospital..


I am fine and so is the baby..but it was still quite a scare...now it's just bed rest until my obgyn appointment, which is fine..I am actually exhausted..I can't recall the last time I was so tired



so..movie recommendations? I have a lot of time on my hands

hey, I took a test


go tellCashCow congratulations!
I feel happy..and refreshed..and everything else that you are supposed to feel
so much so..that I am at a loss of words


so..not to sure what's up with Home Again
but, I guess that's the gamble with member review..I think I actually like the set more now than I did before..it kind of looks pregnant

I need a distraction
and I need sleep

meanwhile..I need to leave this up
Home Again

right now, I wish more than anything that I just knew
because this decision is bigger than me


oh yeah..no Alaska, hopefully it will still be there when the time is right







Home Again

so it's set..I have my plane ticket
I will be in Alaska from October 8th until October 25th
this is a big deal to me, I have wanted to see Alaska my whole life
to top it off...I get to meet this lovely lady...

listen listen listen...click on Alaska..it's my favorite song by them
http://www.ilike.com/artist/The+Voluptuous+Horror+Of+Karen+Black

I am so frustrated with doctors right now..it makes me want to cry..my medication costs like 300 dollars a month so I have been looking online to try to find a less expensive route...I found a Canadian website, but it takes 2 - 4 weeks to ship the medication out..because I have no fucking insurance, my doctor has me come in once a month to get a refill...which costs about 100 dollars for the visit...explaining my situation..you think he would give me refills..now I can't order the medication..because it will take too long to get here

and now I have to go in for a series of blood work and tests $$$$....I don't know why I am bitching, it's my own fault for not having insurance..I just really need to vent...I have just had so many dental and medical bills lately..it really does seem like the more money I make..the more expenses that seem to come up

when I am done with this blog..I need to exercise..I feel like I am going to burst with anxiety...I have been trying to read while I go on a bike or elliptical...it makes time go by quicker..right now I am reading The Shining..I read a couple of his books when I was younger, but lost interest in his writing. I finished Carrie a week or so ago..I liked it, it wasn't scary, but it was entertaining..The Shining, however gives me the heebie geebies..

then maybe wii fit..that should lift my mood

it's a good thing I exercise because I am hungry 24/7 I eat more than my man..it's weird..I should be way bigger than a size 3/4..speaking of..he fit into my pants last night..they were stretchy, but still..it was pretty hysterical..next time..photos

I found this from The Pin Up For Soldier shoot
AlissaBrunelli shot this...it was great being able to work with her again
even if only for a few minutes




I feel lame posting my set every time I make a blog, but I really want this to go up and I think it would get lost otherwise , so if you haven't checked it out..please do and leave me some lovely comments..thank you
Home Again





plus..I am excited to see how my shoot with Cherry turned out..did I tell you how much I liked her..she has the greatest presence..just nice and relaxed, somewhat reserved..it was so refreshing

kind of a dreary day...with the weather to match


woke up..went to the doctors..no insurance makes me an unhappy girl
I am having some digestive problems that will probably take a zillion trips to the doctor and even more money to figure out the cause. As of now...doc thinks I am somewhat malnourished..not diet related..just not absorbing nutrients..what the fuck? why eat? it's all too hilarious because I eat insanely healthy..oh well..he gave me an injection of b12, the thought of administrating these to myself on a regular basis doesn't quite sit well
and then an estimate of my next bill ..thanx doc..

oh, and he took my temperature and was like, you know you have a fever? 99.8? and I was like, "yeah, that happens a lot..my temperature goes up and down" he looked at me funny and said that he would take it again before I left...he did and it was 98.6..now at home I have a fever again..I forgot that that was weird

after the doctors..it was off to a funeral, never a good thing..I didn't know the deceased very well, but I went to be there for someone who did... not to sound horribly cliché, but I really don't know what to do in that situation..I haven't been to a lot of funerals..it seems that people die when I am not around or after they move...I guess there really are no words

looks like Alaska is going to happen..I just needed to kind of dig down and see if I was ready to leave home again..man, am I going to be cold...this girl does not do well in low temperatures...and now I can not get the song "Alaska", by "Voluptuous Horror of Karen Black" out of my head
if you are not familiar with the band

I adore her...so much..I think she is perfection


Dawn Of The Dead is on in the background..I don't feel well, and I could still take out two of those zombies if they fumbled into my room. Rage infected from 28 Weeks Later..not so much. Have I ever mentioned my obsession with that movie? love, love, love it...I have the dad on my computer as my screen saver...but, it needs to go...because if I leave the computer on and happen to wake up from a nightmare..it doesn't help

ok...last but not least...I have a set up in member review shot by CashCow
go take a look and leave me some love
xoxoxo

Home Again





time to play with my cat..he has a pipe cleaner in his mouth and is looking at me like..what the fuck?
I know your jealous that my cat plays catch