I had a bit of a tantrum the other night and deleted all my journals, pictures and profile except for a few of birds. I was probably drunk. I think its kind of a shame now though because I spent a while writing some of them. I went to the library today to try and get some books for the essay I have to write this week and I got soaked from head to foot. I dont know how I forgot how cold and miserable it gets in Winter. It just wont stop raining and its so windy and the sky is pitch black at 4pm. I like the heat even less mind you but at the moment I just want to curl up in my house and hibernate, then wake up when its Spring and for everything to be better. I really want a change, something that would make me feel happy again because Im not particularly happy at the moment in fact I feel rather like Meursault!!!!!! Well I suppose thats not really true, if I was really feeling that apathetic I probably wouldn't be sending people Journey videos and talking about three kinds of cake. I have been most cheered up today when I got sent this from BrianHortonArt. It makes me feel like Im pretty even though these days I'm a mess and I've been wearing pyjamas for about three months except for the two times I've left the house and probably haven't brushed my hair for that long either. Eat cake and listen to Autopsy its the best possible mix.