things will look up...they allways do!!!!

i feel like this would be totally lost in the sea of comments that you've already gotten on this entry but i am never dissuaded.

You've never come across to me as mean or odd or nasty. But then, what i do know of you is based on your journals entries.. and mostly you show two things:
a) your sadness. whenever you're upset you seem to spill it into your journal
b) your passion. you always express your interests very strongly and it shows that you're passionate about certain things when you write about them. (birds and books and artwork, etc)

It's funny. If you didn't live so damn far away i'd be so tempted to find you and meet you. I love to talk and get to know people. I'm an uber nice guy and i don't lie. Like... I can't lie about things. It's that damn conscience in my head that keeps me from doing it. But anyway... erm. nuff bout me.

and that whole memory thing... yeah. i would definitely attribute that to why people so blindly take an emotional beating for so long over something so not worth it sometimes. I also think that we live in a society that does not really raise people to be strong, independent individuals, so we become quickly dependent on relationships for stability, even if they suck 75% of the time. I think this is a good opportunity to re-assess a lot of things and really focus on doing what you want to do with your time and your life.

i look forward to getting my print!!

They were destined to be huge, its all Nirvanas fault. Have a picture of Lisa Dominique and thank the metal gods you havent heard her sing

you make great alternative photography.

love that clip from bladerunner.

sorry about the sadness, but don't feel awkward about it, sometimes in life we just have to feel sad. we all live down in the darkness sometimes, especially when we have lost someone important in our lives. just don't forget the beauty you have in your soul and that there are others out there that are more ready to receive it.

take care of youself and stay well...

happy b-day brother, father and grandad

i'm glad you liked the stuff. i was worried that the oil bottle would smash!! as soon as i saw it everything about it made me think of you. then afterwards i just had to go into thorntons!! did you follow the instructions?

i made some candles yesterday and they're a bit wonky so they keep falling over

the wisdom teeth is day surgery but i'm just glad i'll be out of it when they pull them out!!

thanks

ive been drawing forever, but ive just been practicing tattooing on myself. i started practicing about 4 months ago.... I wanna get better before i attemp something like that on someone else.

Rutger Hauer ad libbed all the dialogue in that scene... Fucking awesome.

The fool who betrays the heart of our angel of twilight is treble the fool and e'er the paragon of woe for his paths from dark to light and day to night are revoked. Thus spent he slouches, serpent coiled and broken cask be his to thirst from.

Fuck. I can't write to save my life right now. I hope you're ok. If things go ok with my current round of negoations, it looks like I'll be in the UK from the 17 or so until the 26th. Do you think you could spare a day or a few hours for me?

xo

It sucks like hell when you feel like that. It's easier said than done but just take the good memories you have and keep them safe.
Things improve with time, it's just shite until then. *hugs*

Ever heard anyone say "they dont make things as they used to"? its the same psicological principle, we all tend to remember good things better than bad things, I guess its some kind of evolutional trait, if we remembered bad things better than good ones, we'll probably give up on life a lot easier than we do.

I know the feeling, everytime I get memories from my last meaningful relationship I get down, what I do is then focus on why it didnt work, and that helps aleviate the pain a bit, it gets easier as time goes by.

Just give it time.