Glad to hear things are better,you are much to pretty and talented to be that damn sad,your great.

i am glad you are sounding better (at least cosmetically)
take care

Maybe a big indian will come and suffocate me and save me tthe hassle of deciding.

That's an intoxicating painting.

And you are right everything is alright in the 'end', it might not always be the best resolution but at lead it's a definative.

i know how you feel

ehg vinegar

glad to hear things are a little better.

and if there ever was a child of the sea, it's you!

hope you are well.

good to hear you were able to have tea with friends,
and i like the painting as well.. its moody but mesmerizing.
I'm sure you will make it back to the sea again sometime soon

I absolutely love your set. It's so beautiful. That's in Scotland? I'm going there for study abroad in January. Maybe I can go swimming naked in the sea, you make it look so fun and pretty and graceful..*sigh* Wonderful.

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Well, not if it's too cold..

I'm sorry to hear that, I hope you get over him soon.

Yes he is I love him so much. what kind of tortoise do you want, how big are they, are they the little guys you were talking about? I would like to have one of those little guys to.

If you ever feel sad and need some one to talk to you know where you can find me.

That is a really good painting.

It was a great set and your story about it was great.

I like chips with lots of vinegar.

I'm not sure what happened, and since you said "Let's pretend the last entry never happened", I'm gonna do just that and not check up on it.

So basically, as very blunt as the details are, the best advice I can give, as redundant as it may seem, is... Be fucking happy. No matter what happens, no matter who dies, no matter who breaks your heart, no matter what you lose: Be happy. In dark times, you learn. Learn to never be hurt the same way again. Just do the best you can to avoid what makes you hurt in the future, and be happy. Do what makes you happy. Learn from losses and dark times. If you lost someone (death, breakup, whatever), remember the times you shared, and appreciate the fact that they even happened. Enjoy what you got, and enjoy what you've had. So many people would give their lives for so many things you've experienced. Feel special. You're rare. No matter what you've experienced, it's unique in its own little way, or big way, no matter what it is.

Just enjoy the time you got. You only get one chance.

Be happy. And try. Those are the two greatest things any being on this planet can do.

I hope things are well.

Take care.

You seem to be handling the situation quite well, I must commend you on it. I also like to say the painting is great.

I believe you , check these righteous edge lyrics I just dropped!!!!

Alcohol is in my veins...
Tears fall as I think of you.
The true memory you left me with
is a key to the wine of melancholy.

I drown myself in the deepest of sorrows-
As you Burned on that stake they burnt
my soul as well.
Your pure feelings, your flaming hate;
it was not enough.

Natassja, my beloved satanic witch,
The power in your eyes and yourself.
Worked for the noble in man.
Pass the bottle, pass the knife,
Pass me your unholy crafts.

I shall never forget you, the best
of all there is, I lick your cold lips,
I embrace your coffin as I sigh in woe.
You never kissed the priest, you never
Drank the blood of jesus. Weird, they say -
well, turn it upside down like you did,
and they kill, kill, and they take you away...

Now, centuries later, I do yours and my sign.
You live in me, like you moved in with my soul.
Your resurrection is the spirit of you -
Installed in me. So now, your thougths
and your pains are my wine; and Natassja:
I'll get these goddam angels drunk...

I'll be studying history/womens studies. The title is 'Queens, Witches and Wenches' so I'm pretty excited about the program. I guess we'll be visiting the homes of King James VI (Dalkeith House), Mary Queen of Scots, and then there's the whole going to the capital city/museums thing. I hope I have much free time to explore as well, I've never been outside the US and I'm bringing my camera.

What's interesting to me? Hmmm. most of my conversations are either a funny story that happened to me, songs I wanna write, or like, movies or comics I wish soneone would make. Is that interesting at all?

What punk said....no point repeating good advise. Now if only I could use this advise more effectively it would be great. Like you stated at the start of this jourlog, so is my logic on loss too, my problem is logic doesn't seem to work on me too well. I guess you could say I'm all heart no brains...except when the situation doesn't involve myself, then wisdom just spews from my mouth like a water fall.
Anyway.,...
Hope.
Hope for the future is THE best thing you can give yourself, and that's what you have. Nice one