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Dear Universe,
Do you like to be happy? I do! If you are having a bad day, something is stressing you out or you like to smile, please watch the following video= good times!
Laughing Man
A few days ago I went to Wally world and got myself the best lunch box (IMO). It fits my meals great! I can fit a whole days worth of meals in the box, it stays cold which will make it less likely for me to cheat. With that being said, I am feeling extremely motivated.
Day 2 of diet is today and I am feeling super sore, which is unusual for me. I am attributing it to the new diet and hopefully fat loss. When everything is said and done, I hope to hit 10% body fat! Wish me luck!
XoXo
Do you like to be happy? I do! If you are having a bad day, something is stressing you out or you like to smile, please watch the following video= good times!
Laughing Man
A few days ago I went to Wally world and got myself the best lunch box (IMO). It fits my meals great! I can fit a whole days worth of meals in the box, it stays cold which will make it less likely for me to cheat. With that being said, I am feeling extremely motivated.
Day 2 of diet is today and I am feeling super sore, which is unusual for me. I am attributing it to the new diet and hopefully fat loss. When everything is said and done, I hope to hit 10% body fat! Wish me luck!
XoXo
Dear Universe,
Life seems to go better when you just let it happen. I have found that although I try to keep control of most things in my life, life is still out of my control. and the more that I let it go and just float along, the happier I am.
In any context, I am happier than I have ever been before. I am starting to second guess doing another show. For many reasons, I can't seem to pin down which one would actually be the show stopper, but let me make a list:
1) Doing a show would cost at least $300, which I am not sure I want to spend. At least not on that, when our house is being built.
2) I do not think I am good enough to place and for some reason, I never feel like I am muscular enough to be competing. Although, if that were the case, than I should have never attempted in the first place. So, this is me being too hard on myself per usual.
3) I am not sure I want to diet....ever really. I fucking hate the diet. It makes me gag, no really, YOU try eating grilled chicken for 13-15 weeks straight and tell me you still want to eat it. I may be forgetting to mention that I am not the best cook, and I am pretty sure the chicken I make is dry...which makes it hard to swallow... fml. Ew.
4) I have become aware of the politics of the sport and realize that the more I know, the less it becomes about bettering myself and more it becomes about receiving the acceptance of others. With my increasing social anxiety, or my severe need to stay far away from "people" makes this sport seem less and less attractive....
Wait, what am I saying? The sport is extremely attractive, but I am being a lazy bum and I think I am not good enough. No matter how much weight I am able to lift....
I thought my cat was neutered. Why does he keep trying to hump my other cat?
Life seems to go better when you just let it happen. I have found that although I try to keep control of most things in my life, life is still out of my control. and the more that I let it go and just float along, the happier I am.
In any context, I am happier than I have ever been before. I am starting to second guess doing another show. For many reasons, I can't seem to pin down which one would actually be the show stopper, but let me make a list:
1) Doing a show would cost at least $300, which I am not sure I want to spend. At least not on that, when our house is being built.
2) I do not think I am good enough to place and for some reason, I never feel like I am muscular enough to be competing. Although, if that were the case, than I should have never attempted in the first place. So, this is me being too hard on myself per usual.
3) I am not sure I want to diet....ever really. I fucking hate the diet. It makes me gag, no really, YOU try eating grilled chicken for 13-15 weeks straight and tell me you still want to eat it. I may be forgetting to mention that I am not the best cook, and I am pretty sure the chicken I make is dry...which makes it hard to swallow... fml. Ew.
4) I have become aware of the politics of the sport and realize that the more I know, the less it becomes about bettering myself and more it becomes about receiving the acceptance of others. With my increasing social anxiety, or my severe need to stay far away from "people" makes this sport seem less and less attractive....
Wait, what am I saying? The sport is extremely attractive, but I am being a lazy bum and I think I am not good enough. No matter how much weight I am able to lift....
I thought my cat was neutered. Why does he keep trying to hump my other cat?
My cat is an asshole. Let me tell you about Bruce. Bruce sucks his own nipples, pees in all laundry baskets as well as ALL of my shoes. He is very angry at me and I can not figure out why.
So, to make things simpler, I am just going to conclude that he is an asshole.
So, to make things simpler, I am just going to conclude that he is an asshole.
Hello World,
Update time! Long time no talk, sorry I am not a better blogger....better yet, I am not much of a blogger whatsoever. I can count on one hand how many times I have attempted to start a blog and have failed miserably. For the most part, I try to too hard, it doesn't work, then I just leave it be.
Soooooo, I ended up getting married to my Jake back in November. It was slightly earlier than planned, more or less we had decided over a camp fire that neither of us really wanted a large wedding and decided to get it over with quick and painessly. Although, we were both sweating horribly and there was only seven people there... yeeeeeeaaaah, thank god for the courthouse. No pun intended.
I finished my first figure competition on October 8, 2011. It resulted with me taking fifth place in figure short in the novice division, then with a little coaching (in regards to my posing) I ended up taking third in Figure short in the open division which was a great accomplishment for me. I was fairly happy with the result seeing how small I was at the time, limited muscle mass but the muscle I did have showed tremendously. I think my confidence hit home as well. It was not first, but there are obviously some areas that need work....and I hope to only go up from here.
With that being said, I have been exceptionally happy with my lifts! I can bi-cep curl 30 lbs for five reps, tri-cep cable pushdowns I am up to 100lb with keeping good form, higher if I am trying to be cocky but the form is off...lol. I can, without assistance, tri-cep dip and do a solid amount of pullups and 115 on the Lat pull down. Bi-ceps and triceps coming in nicely, the shoulders are capped just hidden under a mound of fat. I swear on it. Either way, I will be losing the fat in a couple months as I intend on competing in two shows....both NANBF, Natural body building shows... no water pills for me.
My husband and I are building a house! YAY! Things have been coming together rather quickly for me despite what I have been through in the last couple years. Who am I fooling, compared to some, what I went through was not so bad....
I hope all is well on your end, wherever you are at this point in your life, sending good vibes your way no matter who you are....
XoXo
Update time! Long time no talk, sorry I am not a better blogger....better yet, I am not much of a blogger whatsoever. I can count on one hand how many times I have attempted to start a blog and have failed miserably. For the most part, I try to too hard, it doesn't work, then I just leave it be.
Soooooo, I ended up getting married to my Jake back in November. It was slightly earlier than planned, more or less we had decided over a camp fire that neither of us really wanted a large wedding and decided to get it over with quick and painessly. Although, we were both sweating horribly and there was only seven people there... yeeeeeeaaaah, thank god for the courthouse. No pun intended.
I finished my first figure competition on October 8, 2011. It resulted with me taking fifth place in figure short in the novice division, then with a little coaching (in regards to my posing) I ended up taking third in Figure short in the open division which was a great accomplishment for me. I was fairly happy with the result seeing how small I was at the time, limited muscle mass but the muscle I did have showed tremendously. I think my confidence hit home as well. It was not first, but there are obviously some areas that need work....and I hope to only go up from here.
With that being said, I have been exceptionally happy with my lifts! I can bi-cep curl 30 lbs for five reps, tri-cep cable pushdowns I am up to 100lb with keeping good form, higher if I am trying to be cocky but the form is off...lol. I can, without assistance, tri-cep dip and do a solid amount of pullups and 115 on the Lat pull down. Bi-ceps and triceps coming in nicely, the shoulders are capped just hidden under a mound of fat. I swear on it. Either way, I will be losing the fat in a couple months as I intend on competing in two shows....both NANBF, Natural body building shows... no water pills for me.
My husband and I are building a house! YAY! Things have been coming together rather quickly for me despite what I have been through in the last couple years. Who am I fooling, compared to some, what I went through was not so bad....
I hope all is well on your end, wherever you are at this point in your life, sending good vibes your way no matter who you are....
XoXo
Hello world,
Or hello SG, if anyone is listening. I have not been on here in quite some time. For many reasons, one being that I am not sure that I want people to have access to my life or inner most thoughts. Call me a rebel, but I don't have a myspace and I think facebook is far too overrated. I try to live my life as drama free as possible, but it doesn't always go my way.
Time for an update:
Leo and I broke up. After two years of complete torture and being treated like complete crap, I finally decided the relationship needed to be severed. It wasn't that hard to do, after all, he did cheat on me with at least two other people. One being a lady who he had actually formed a relationship with on the side for 10 months....Can you say double life? I can scream it. No really.
After a couple of really agonizing months where I felt totally out of control with just about everything in my life....I finally found a hobby that I enjoy. At least, I did enjoy up until about a week ago. I am preparing for my first figure competiton! It has been a lot of work. I lift weights about four times a week and cardio about five. I have never looked better! I will be entering my first competition on October 8, 2011. I just got my suit today....super excited about that.
Last but not least, I met someone. His name is Jake and he is pretty damn flipping amazing. It is a little weird how quickly we hit it off, and it scares me. A whole heck of a lot, but I am going with it. Actually, we are engaged and will be getting married this Spring. At least we will be, if he can handle my mood swings through the carb depletion and loading that I am currently experiencing.
It is making me nuts.
Either way, that is what is going on in my life. I am going to try to keep this thing updated to the best of my ability. It is kinda a stress releiver.
Or hello SG, if anyone is listening. I have not been on here in quite some time. For many reasons, one being that I am not sure that I want people to have access to my life or inner most thoughts. Call me a rebel, but I don't have a myspace and I think facebook is far too overrated. I try to live my life as drama free as possible, but it doesn't always go my way.
Time for an update:
Leo and I broke up. After two years of complete torture and being treated like complete crap, I finally decided the relationship needed to be severed. It wasn't that hard to do, after all, he did cheat on me with at least two other people. One being a lady who he had actually formed a relationship with on the side for 10 months....Can you say double life? I can scream it. No really.
After a couple of really agonizing months where I felt totally out of control with just about everything in my life....I finally found a hobby that I enjoy. At least, I did enjoy up until about a week ago. I am preparing for my first figure competiton! It has been a lot of work. I lift weights about four times a week and cardio about five. I have never looked better! I will be entering my first competition on October 8, 2011. I just got my suit today....super excited about that.
Last but not least, I met someone. His name is Jake and he is pretty damn flipping amazing. It is a little weird how quickly we hit it off, and it scares me. A whole heck of a lot, but I am going with it. Actually, we are engaged and will be getting married this Spring. At least we will be, if he can handle my mood swings through the carb depletion and loading that I am currently experiencing.
It is making me nuts.
Either way, that is what is going on in my life. I am going to try to keep this thing updated to the best of my ability. It is kinda a stress releiver.
