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JULY 23, 2008 @ 04:14 PM

I'm fighting off the depression like a trooper, it's a bit like an epic battle to the death from a martial arts movie, only completely undramatic. More like me sitting with a look of deep concentration, staring out into the sea. I have been down the beach a lot. I can think better when I'm facing the ocean. I've lived by the sea for many years now, and the shore has always been a place I can run off to when things get tough.

My strategy has been to speak to people that make me smile (I can think of like, 3 people) and make my week a 'super happy fun week'- do lots of things that make me happy:

Monday: Went to the aquarium. Made friends with a really ugly flat-faced fish who followed me up and down the tank. Also saw an otter lick another otter's genitals, which was funny, if only for the children's responses around me. 'EEEW!'
Tuesday: Magical-mystery-history day. Learning is fun. I went to the local castle and to the museum on WWII. I like castles because they are dark, and you can peek through the windows and feel powerful. I tried on a tudor neck ruff

Like that. I was pleased with my appearance.
Military history is an interesting subject. Mainly I find the strategical stuff a little dry, but the stuff on the human impact of war is fascinating.
Wednesday: Went to the beach and did some sketching. I'm no artist, but art is good therapy, so I tried. Some guy came up to me and asked if I'd draw him, I told him no. I hate people. Also, I saw Kung Fu Panda today, it was great. Myself, and several other people spontaneously clapped at the end. I don't think I've ever been compelled to that before in a movie


What's next on super fun happy week?

Thursday: Going to see my friend Claire, you may remember her as ClearBrightFire. I intend to spend as much of the day as I can soaking in her happy family vibe. She has an awesome son, who even melts my cold, cold heart. In the evening I'm going to see Batman at the cinema.
Friday: See my Bonnie, maybe have a picnic or something. Lots of girl talk, I expect. In the evening I'm seeing Alice Cooper.

The weekend is looking pretty empty right now. I'm thinking of going to Monkey World. Not that I've discussed that with anyone else yet. Who wants to see some monkeys with me?

Look, they're taking over the world!!

That's all I have to say. Here's another youtube video about a depressed robot. This time it's Cheesoid, not Marvin.

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Dougrun

Dougrun

San Luis Obispo, CA
February 2007

JUL 23, 2008 04:31 PM

I got really depressed to last week. been in the dumps about my job and other things. it helps to talk it over with people.

Bonnie

Bonnie

SUICIDEGIRL

United Kingdom

JUL 23, 2008 05:09 PM

Cannot wait to see you Fri, miss.
Weather allowing (as usual) pack your sunscreen cuz we's hitting the common/beach for some serious picnic/frying ourselves action smile

Glad you're doing such awesome fun stuff this week. Batman AND Alice Cooper AND fishies? I's jealous frown
Call you thurs p.m to arrange fri.
love you muchos kiss

_TheFred_

_TheFred_

Chicago, IL
February 2004

JUL 23, 2008 05:12 PM

I've been going through some shit too, so I fear ya pain.

Lately, I've been exercising, taking St John's Wort and drinking WAY less(I use to drink everyday). Hope you're doing alright though.

Davidle1

Davidle1

Hammond, IN
October 2005

JUL 23, 2008 05:28 PM

I would just say your cute! I would not ask you to draw me. I mean why waste your time?

Iam sure the LAMO was not interested in your art. I try not to bother other people at the beach unless

there half naked with a sign that virtually says iam hot and do me. Then I go surreal surreal eeek eeek


biggrin biggrin biggrin . I like going to the beach and just hearing the waves and last time I went was almost perfect. I have

these awsome sunglasses that are amazingly good and I was rocking my I-pod and fully prepared to host

to a small party of at least 5. (I have no idea why) I was just there chilling by myself with a fully stocked

cooler. It was heavy has hell caring around a huge cooler and massive beach lounger.

Ilsa

Ilsa

SUICIDEGIRL

Spain

JUL 23, 2008 06:09 PM

Sending happy thoughts your way.

Since you are interested in military history, if you are ever in Malta I recommend you to go to the Armery in Valletta... Lots of coold old weapons there, and everything is very well explained. I was lucky and even got to see an reenactment later where they used some of those rifles.

I would go to see monkeys with you if I lived closer! kiss

Darqkloud

Darqkloud

Chicago, IL
December 2005

JUL 23, 2008 08:06 PM

Great approach to dealing with depression.
And who doesn't love monkeys? smile

PunkNiteMike

PunkNiteMike

Troy, OH
OLD SKOOL

JUL 23, 2008 08:49 PM

listen to music, it can be like therapy and help your depression! it can get ya thru those rough times when you arent feeling like yourself, its done wonders for me!

monkey world...interesting. as long as they dont have those ugly ass monkeys from last summer in baltimore, ya remember those?

you'll love Batman, ive seen it twice already!

ApeLincoln

ApeLincoln

Netherlands
February 2006

JUL 23, 2008 09:30 PM

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Miyo

Miyo

SUICIDEGIRL

United Kingdom

JUL 24, 2008 02:18 AM

i would love to go to monkey world with you, it would be much much better than work!

Strawberry_bomb

Strawberry_bomb

United Kingdom
November 2005

JUL 24, 2008 03:22 PM

Monkey world looks awesome. I cannot wait to see batman.

Anthea

Anthea

SUICIDEGIRL

Norway

JUL 26, 2008 05:53 AM

<3 PM me if you ever need virtual hug darling.. I´ve been going through the same thing.. :/

ARRR!!!

mat8drb

mat8drb

United Kingdom
October 2004

JUL 30, 2008 12:36 PM

Monkey world is good but it is OPPOSITE THE TANK MUESEUM. Did you go?

Military history is good, from most angles apart from the tactical ones.

Hope it is getting better. smile

Lolo

Lolo

SUICIDEGIRL

United Kingdom

AUG 07, 2008 07:14 AM

Hope you're okay... Have lots of super happy fun weeks smile x

Suri

Suri

SUICIDEGIRL

Pennsylvania, USA

AUG 07, 2008 09:47 AM

i thought of you today.


i'm glad you are giveing yourself a happy fun week, and i hope that its still going okay.


i saw some super lame lucha porn on monday, and thought of you then too (but in much dirtier ways)

Sky

Sky

SUICIDEGIRL

United Kingdom

AUG 07, 2008 12:11 PM

flat faced fish are the best kind of friends smile

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