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I'll just throw it all on the table now. I am petrified of the paranormal. I'm not talking "oh I'm afraid of the dark and get creeped out by cemeteries" shit. I'm talking deep-rooted, almost crippling fear. 
I'm an atheist, and I don't believe in an afterlife. However...drumroll, please...I was raised extremely Catholic. So all that fire and brimstone business is ingrained in me. Now my parents weren't all "let's put the fear of God in our children" or anything. Actually, my Dad isn't that religious at all; it's my mom and her mom, and so on. I was sent to Catholic grade school and high school. My mom believes in angels, demons, and the Devil (she claims her sister's twin daughters saw Satan hovering over their depressed older brother...LOL). My mom used to bless our house with Holy Water and pray the rosary every day.
I know that these fears are ridiculous. I often laugh at myself for being so pansy-assed when it comes to ghosts, and particularly demons. Logically, I can attribute paranormal activity to latent energy (who knows where energy goes after someone dies?) and the human psyche. There are so many things we will never understand about the power our minds. And I'm okay with that. However, despite all my rationale and common sense, I cannot shake my lifelong battle with this fear.
Lately, though, I've been feeling rather brave regarding my fear of all things paranormal. I've been suggesting to my husband, only half-jokingly, that we sit down and watch some movies I've vowed to never see. Rosemary's Baby, the original Amityville Horror, basically anything dealing with hell and its relationship with people on earth. Part of me thinks this would just be a stupid decision. Because as cheesey as these movies have to be, I'd most likely end up crying and having to sleep with the light on for weeks.
I feel such a strong urge to face these fears head-on. I almost wanna call up Jason and Grant from T.A.P.S and be all "Hey. Can you help a terrified sister out? Let me accompany you guys on one of your runs of a haunted location...Let's shake this fear outta me!" Noah thinks it's a baaaaaaad idea. lol
I'm an atheist, and I don't believe in an afterlife. However...drumroll, please...I was raised extremely Catholic. So all that fire and brimstone business is ingrained in me. Now my parents weren't all "let's put the fear of God in our children" or anything. Actually, my Dad isn't that religious at all; it's my mom and her mom, and so on. I was sent to Catholic grade school and high school. My mom believes in angels, demons, and the Devil (she claims her sister's twin daughters saw Satan hovering over their depressed older brother...LOL). My mom used to bless our house with Holy Water and pray the rosary every day.
I know that these fears are ridiculous. I often laugh at myself for being so pansy-assed when it comes to ghosts, and particularly demons. Logically, I can attribute paranormal activity to latent energy (who knows where energy goes after someone dies?) and the human psyche. There are so many things we will never understand about the power our minds. And I'm okay with that. However, despite all my rationale and common sense, I cannot shake my lifelong battle with this fear.
Lately, though, I've been feeling rather brave regarding my fear of all things paranormal. I've been suggesting to my husband, only half-jokingly, that we sit down and watch some movies I've vowed to never see. Rosemary's Baby, the original Amityville Horror, basically anything dealing with hell and its relationship with people on earth. Part of me thinks this would just be a stupid decision. Because as cheesey as these movies have to be, I'd most likely end up crying and having to sleep with the light on for weeks.
I feel such a strong urge to face these fears head-on. I almost wanna call up Jason and Grant from T.A.P.S and be all "Hey. Can you help a terrified sister out? Let me accompany you guys on one of your runs of a haunted location...Let's shake this fear outta me!" Noah thinks it's a baaaaaaad idea. lol
JUL 15, 2009 08:59 PM
If J and Grant cant help you - nobody can 
