the following photos do no justice to the fun i had or the amazing stories i came back with, but it was epic. I FUCKING LOVE VEGAS.

dear no one,

i feel pretty good about things all around. it's an awesome feeling. life is treating me pretty good at the moment. yay.

got a huge crush on the fedex guy (insert your played out witty jokes about packages/boxes/kneepads/etc here). crushes are ridiculously fun, and he is hot.

heading out to vegas next week with my bff (aka the MOST AWESOME person in the world) of nearly 23 years. the occasion? my mother fucking birthday, and the fact that we're both pretty awesome ladies in need of a vacation and some good times together. fun times are ahead, bitches.

as i type this, i am fully rocking out to nkotb, and i have no shame for it. i even made my fluffy cat dance with me to a song. and yes, i am aware that i should be embarrassed about this, but i'm not. go fuck yourself.

gonna head out to see iron man 2 with eric allen now. later.

sincerely,
alice

p.s. this pic is about 6 months old, but you internet people never tire of girls posting pics of themselves in a state of undress, so suck it, bitches.

p.s. saw miss love in action tonight. still love her just as much as i did 15 years ago. yeah... showing my OLD. come meet my cats and my crazy lady gaga costumes.

p.p.s. none of the above was remotely sarcastic.

i've known him for a long time now.....



how we met is kind of funny....



but how things turned out is pretty tragic....



i've loved him for so long, but i never really let him feel it. i still love him now, and i tell him all the time. i'll love him always....



he's supported me emotionally, artistically, sometimes financially, and otherwise.....



he's bent over backwards to get me where i needed to be....



he's always been there, even when i've totally fucked up. and he's always helped put the pieces back together....



he's not the evil person some have made him out to be. sadly, i'm sure i helped play a hand in that idea for a few people when i was really angry....



i haven't given him nearly as much of myself as he's given me....



i hate the way i took him for granted. i hate that i was never able to realize just how amazing he is and how much we really love each other until after i'd already caused so much damage. i hate that i didn't try harder. i hate that i ran off with someone who proved to be the worst thing i ever let into my life....



i've made more than my fair share of mistakes. and i've caused a lot of pain....



but for whatever reason, he's still able to love me...



i just hope he lets me show him that i can love him the way he wants and needs to be loved by me....



i love him with all my heart, even though the horrible quality of these photos may not accurately reflect that....

ok, let's try again....

so might i just say....

BEST BIRTHDAY I'VE HAD IN A VERY, VERY LONG TIME. seriously. completely amazing.

my roommate is amazing. and so are the rest of my friends.

so who's ready for 8 million photos without captions?!

first off... they dressed in bright colors for me at work...


and then it's birthday NIGHT...
requirement... NEON
and yes, i ate steak... and it was AMAZING!


























and... birthday party....












and there's a few more pictures on the flickr.... and meat eating video possibly to come.

my friends are AWESOME.

way more AWESOME than yours!

here's to a very merry birthday!

i officially hate everyone.

good job, people!

you can all go fuck yourselves now.