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well i'm glad to say that things have been going pretty well lately. nice, sunny los angeles weather. the leak in my bathroom is supposed to be fixed again tomorrow for like the 4th time. no more stalker, really. finished my storyboard for my film class a week before it's due. met some people from the sg boards on saturday night, and that was super fun. got to see my friend bobby from my hometown that night too, as well as some other cool people. and i think people will be happy to know that more pics were taken this weekend with a digital camera. so no more pic quality complaints. oh, and i'm going home this weekend to shoot a little film project for school. i get to see my best friend, so i'm super excited to hang out with her and stuff. it'll be fun. i get to dress my friends up like hookers and run over one of them with a car. yes. but i did sleep in a little late today and missed my drawing class, cuz i'm a big lame-o. oh well. everything has been pretty good...
oh, sweet rejection.... why does applying to school have to feel like you're contending to be miss (or mr) america? why does the rejection have to feel like some boy or girl you had a crush on just told you that they think you're ugly and stupid and they hate you? but this i can recover from, like that dumb saying: "if at first you don't succeed, try, try again." i'm not scarred for life, but it still sucks. what a crazy week it's been! there's always next year, and the year after that, and the year after that... at least i tried, right? but why oh why oh why did they have to spoil my weekend with a rejection letter? that's so mean.... like sugar in my gas tank...
my best friend (from cupertino) called me last night... i miss that girl a lot. it's so lonely in los angeles with out her. we've been friends for almost 15 years. that's a lot of history.... i'm a little worried about two of our other friends. they're planning on moving to an island off of portugal in may. it's a LONG story.... i just worry. it's weird leaving home and then hearing about all the drama that's been going on there with all these people i used to hang out with... and it's really sad to know that i would only talk to most of these people a couple times after i moved, and then maybe only talk to them them when i go back for a few days, to eventually never hear from them again at some point. it just makes me sad sometimes... i know that some of them will never leave cupertino, either... people are so afraid to make changes and to let go, when sometimes that's the best thing for them.....
happy valentine's day! isn't it weird how v-day can suck if you're single, but also suck if you're with someone? it's so depressing to be single on v-day when you're looking at all those cute couples making out everywhere and dry humping in the middle of the street. but there's so much pressure on v-day when you're with somebody, and it can be such a let down. it's such a hallmark marketing scheme. at the same time, its one of those days i just can't ignore if i'm seeing someone. i'm so silly like that... my "stalker" continues to call me profusely; with out leaving a message! what kind of a person does that? why listen to the whole outgoing message if you're not going to leave a message? just so i can have a blank message? people can be so strange.... my english teacher almost put me to sleep today. he somehow manages to suck up 3 hours by having a conversation with a wall and not letting anyone else speak.... anyway, i'm just ranting right now. i'll stop complaining now, i swear.... i feel so broke and silly right now.....
the first week of the new semester at school is finally over. yay! i'm actually happy with all but one of my classes, so that's very cool. modern dance kicked my ass the other night. my back is still sore. why is it that english teachers always like to spend so much time talking about nothing? i don't understand. i don't like going into a class and pretty much being told that your whole life has to be devoted to that one class or you won't pass. i thought i was supposed to be encouraged, not discouraged. and why do you always have to have that one token annoying person in class? another thing.... how do you handle an obsessive person who makes you feel like you're being stalked, and is a little bit psycho? and why are these people drawn to me?
okay, i'm writing again, because i decided i had to ditch that email address. i couldn't reply back to anybody, and it's just going to be such a pain in the ass to get that all figured out. so i need to update my email address.... people that i'm sending or replying to, it is me, just from another account.... sorry about all that...
hey everyone! thanks for all the positive feedback and the warm welcome to the suicide girls. i'm having a little trouble sending email from that account right now, so my apologies for the delay in my response to those who wrote me. i'm trying to get that all squared away. hopefully that will all be taken care of very soon.... i just started the spring semester today, and it's nice to finally have stuff to do to keep me busy again. uhm, other than that, i don't have much else to say right now.....
