There must be one thing that gets you excited academically. Fixate on it.

Are the nightmares in your sleep or once you wake?? As for what is interesting...

It has been said that man is a rational animal. All my life I have been searching for evidence which could support this.
- Bertrand Russell

I'm going back to school. I never finished my Batchelor's in English, and I'm going back. But I'm doubling up on majjors - PoliSci and English. I think I wantt to be a lobbyist for women's issues, but eventually teach high school.

INTO: Math, with bread and cheese... and beer. Lots of beer. Living.

yeah.

I should go to graduate school as well...but I'm very unmotivated to ever go back to college.

I seem to be in the same place...
however, valerian root helps my troubled sleep at times

hope you find some peace, and warmth

Enough self-pity. What, had a shtty last week or something? Turn up the heat, have a beer, do some math, and cheer up.

I miss you too. A lot.

The painting was supposed to give your brother nightmares, not you, silly.

i did that.

it didn't solve any of the problems you're describing.

Insomnia leads to insanity. If you drink soda, coffee, tea, "energy drinks," whatever, stop now. No caffeine! If your schedule allows you to sleep for a few days do so, the nightmares will end. You are too young to submit to the horrors of sleep deprivation and all the recurrent traumas involved. If you can't just shut down for the weekend consider physical activity beyond your normal capacity. Exertion = exhaustion, you'll sleep better, feel better. Don't make yourself crazy, believe me, insanity is HIGHLY overrated.

Get thee to a nunnery. Oh, no... don't.

I think that some majors in school are at least partially vocational training. That's not so with the pure math stuff.

So, here's my analysis of the options available to a math student.

1) As an undergrad, do really well at a top 20 school. Do a PhD at a top 10 school. A few years post-doc, latch on someplace, grab tenure. This is the "Big Leagues" Go look at a good school. Look at the faculty. Where did they earn their PhD's?

2) As an undergrad, do Math+Something, go go rock in the Something. Potentially make buttload of money by selling your soul.

3) Treat undergrad as a good foundation then go do a professional masters in another field as vocational training. Something like an MBA, Law Degree, Economics, etc.

Most of the other paths I can think of lead to bagging groceries.

BTW, I have a friend who did okay as an undergrad in math. Went to an okay school and did a PhD. He's now teaching intro calculus at a community college part time. Not cool.

So, I'd say grad school yes, in Math maybe yes, maybe no.

i hate the funk. the funk takes over and it is stronger than me most days.

[Edited on Nov 19, 2005 12:15PM]