SuicideGirl: Adaline
suicidegirl

Adaline what can I sink my teeth into...

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JANUARY 5, 2008 @ 10:08 PM


I am just so fucking sad right now. My bones hurt from being so lonely, lost. What is it to love when the one you love is nothing but a cold front? It has been so long. We have made it through so many things. Where did it go? Why does this happen? Why do I still care?

I wrote him an email, and spent all this time taking half naked pics in one of his shirts to add as attachements. He's been gone for a month now. I sent it five days ago, and he still hasn't opened it. Just a waste. Just a waste of all this love and passion inside of me. I'm as interesting as an old towel.

What hurts the most, is that he wouldn't fight for me. If I were to warn of leaving. Not a minute of his time. Not a bit of his energy.

I'm just an unnecessary flaw in his "rockstar" life.

I need a good fuck. An angry fuck. A lustfull fuck.

I can always daydream.

Oh well, tomorrow I'll wake up and the anger will have faded and I'll be back where I started. Neither here nor there but some awkward state of in-between.

Fuck it. G'night
Comments
joker_

joker_

Minneapolis, MN
October 2005

JAN 05, 2008 10:56 PM

Sorry to see it all going so poorly for you. You are not as interesting as an old towel, you're awesome. I wish I could say that the situation will improve, but experience doesn't tell me that. Experience tells me things get better when we leave shitty situations in the past.

Frankystein

Frankystein

HOPEFUL

Troy, IN

JAN 05, 2008 11:08 PM

aww honey, i'm so sorry to hear that...i wish guys weren't so....well...just guys... *hugs* things will get better that's what i always tell myself.

nikonphoto80

nikonphoto80

Lexington, KY
December 2004

JAN 05, 2008 11:16 PM

you deserve to be treated so much better then that, you are very beautiful and very smart and very cool and very interesting, I hope he sees how great you are before it is to late.

Remyx

remyx

Little Rock, AR
March 2004

JAN 05, 2008 11:24 PM

sorry for your pain. everyone deserves that other who will reciprocate the affection given to them, and create their own to give in the process. I hope your heart ache is very short. if he doesn't have the time for you, you shouldn't give him another thought. easier said than done at times.

m0ngrel

m0ngrel

Los Angeles, CA
OLD SKOOL

JAN 05, 2008 11:44 PM

kiss

Metaverse

Metaverse

USA
March 2005

JAN 05, 2008 11:48 PM

I felt like that once a long time ago. I wish I had some sage wisdom for you, but all I can say is I hope you feel better. Just take things day to day and hope for the best. Maybe his eyes will open and see what he has before him.

viknar

viknar

Schenectady, NY
December 2004

JAN 06, 2008 12:06 AM

I hope your daydreams come true zombie girl.

Gidgette

Gidgette

SUICIDEGIRL

USA

JAN 06, 2008 12:45 AM

wow I feel the same way about the relationship Im in now. I cant make the love last if Im the only one trying right? Its sad to love and not be loved back, and I just continue to try...............
Its like he has a callous heart and no emotion I dunno..... good luck babe... you deserve the world and everything in it kiss

Nailhead63

Nailhead63

Long Beach, CA
November 2007

JAN 06, 2008 01:50 AM

Going through much of the same right now. Really sucks. Sorry. Just tell yourself what I have been trying to believe, It's all for the best. If it was really that good, it would have lasted. As you take time to heal, it will all become clear. No one owns your heart but you. You can give away little pieces but when its all said and done, its how much you love youself that really matters. Besides the guy would have to be an idiot. Let him go. He'll be the one with regrets.

thedvsmonkey

thedvsmonkey

Buffalo Grove, IL
January 2005

JAN 06, 2008 02:51 PM

Well, I certainly can't promise you hard core fucking but if you ever come back to Chicago I can at the very least promise you a fun time with a friend whose there for you should you need it! kiss

ooo aaa

joenobody

joenobody

I'm lost
December 2004

JAN 06, 2008 03:38 PM

it's not worth beating yourself up about it. there's more guys out there.

BigSense

BigSense

The Dalles, OR
December 2007

JAN 06, 2008 07:48 PM

Time is the only thing that helps....Time and time alone. All the theory and philosophy in the world never changes the fact that time heals all.......It'll take time, it'll hurt for a while, but each day gets better and better. Keep your chin up and before you know it.........it just doesnt hurt as much.....

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