Note to self: You really need to develop a better sleep pattern. I told myself last night that I was going to slip into bed no later than 1am...I didn't actually listen until almost 5am. Needless to say, I woke up maybe a half hour ago. Ugh, I get so mad at myself...I've always been this way.

I found an old friend from high school just now on myspace that I haven't seen since then. It's incredible how much people change, in such a short amount of time...only almost 3 years. It's also crazy how things can make important people in your life drift away. People come and go too much. But! That's all just a part of life, I suppose.

Although I'm really excited about starting my tattoo today, I've also gotten myself kinda nervous about when that needle hits a bit of that rib cage. Someone hold my hand?

If I could spend a day with these people, oh me, oh my! I would die a happy lady.

Betties:
--Angelina Jolie

--Masuimi Max

--Sheri Moon Zombie

Beau's:
--Nikki Sixx

--Brandon Boyd

-Travis Barker

"What I want is to be needed. What I need is to be indispensable to somebody. Who I need is somebody that will eat up all my free time, my ego, my attention. Somebody addicted to me. A mutual addiction." -Chuck Palahniuk

"Love is giving someone the ability to destroy you, but trusting them not to." I believe love is hard to find, easy to lose, and wonderful to experience. Lust gives you the best feeling, but it wears away and often screws with your judgement. Love is ultimate, in the end. But it can hurt, it can hurt really bad. Especially when it's taken for granted or ignored.

People come and go to much. I just want someone constant. I want to wrap myself around someone forever. Sometimes, I just want someone I feel so consumed with. Someone to protect me, to grow with me.

I need something exciting to happen in my life. I tend to bore of things very quickly...and right now, my life is at a standstill. I need a breath of fresh air, whatever that may be. I wanna cuddle right now and fall asleep. But with a boyfriend, or something like that. I don't have one. (Not that that's an open invitation. Or a closed one, for that matter!)

...Wait, no. I'm a tough girl. I find comfort in solitude. Single for life mentality.
Secretly, I don't really think I dislike relationships as much I say I do. It's just, if I say it enough, I'll make myself believe it. It's working so far. I've been single since February. I know I'll wake up in the morning and kick myself in the knee.

I guess it's just nice sometimes...I just haven't found anyone worth my time, other than wasting it. I can't find anyone to hold my attention for very long. Sometimes I miss what it feels like. To be so close to someone. Your best friend. To cuddle them and feel so safe and at home in their arms. But, it's been so long since that happened, since I let that happen. That I wonder. How can you miss something you know nothing about? Tonight's one of those nights, embarrassing admission. But just tonight. I'll feel better in the morning...and kick myself for writing this. I hate admitting to this...it makes me feel weak. I'm tired. And tonight, I'd like to fall asleep in someone's arms.

Push it away.
Disregard this whole blog.

I tend to procrastinate and am rarely on time for anything. I have a problem with not listening to anyone....even myself. I run off of emotion a lot. I'm very impulsive because of this. I'm not ashamed of anything and I'll tell you how it is. I'm an open book, what you see is what you get. Take it or leave it because I like who I am and I wouldn't change a thing. I still have no idea who I really am or what I want. I constantly evolve. I guess all this could be a good thing or a bad thing?

Oh well, it's me. I've got something to say...one day you'll see what I mean.

Ever had those days where you wake up and just want to lay back down and sleep all day long?
::raises hand:: I slept for a whole 2 hours last night, was tired all day long, and alas, it's 1AM and I'm writing a blog post! Silly me. I think it's safe to say insomnia and I mated for life years ago.

I went to the mall today, pretty much for the photo booth! I also scored a cute Pin-Up mini-calendar. I stopped by a friend's house after that. He was sick with the flu, so I surprise visited and brought him Sprite and a bag of candy. I do what I can for the people I like. Yay for leopard print steering wheel covers. He gave it to me when I left. I'm a sucker for animal print.

Ewww, Daylight Saving's Time ends tonight. When I wake up, I'm going to be in such a bad mood. Both time changes always throw me off for a few weeks. I seriously get in the worst mood. I hope you all sleep well and wake up to a peaceful morning.