I feel the same way. When I'm gone, all I can talk about is how great Los Angeles is (as one of the last few people to actually be born here), but everytime I come home, I like it a little bit less and I can't wait to leave.

I only come home for about two weeks out of the year, but it's too much time. The worst part is, I realize that *every* time I come home, but I insist on spending my whole vacation time here.

Blah.

sometimes it's just hard to come to grips with the fact that things change - people change - places change - especially when it's part of our foundation. I remember totally regressing to my old bad habits whenever I went home during college, but I wouldn't have traded those visits for anything. Once in a while ya gotta tap into your roots. Even if it's unhealthy in the short term for one reason or another, it's worse to lose the attachment altogether. If you can't come to terms with where you've been, it's harder to figure out where in the hell you're going.

OTOH like Mathilde said we don't really know anything about your life, so this advice could all be BS haha

*hugs*

A clean break with your past is always painful, but also always worth it, in my experience.

Good luck exploring the infinite abyss.

hey cutie,

i sucked it up and spent a little of my christmas check on an account.
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<3

you never want a clean break....then you would never learn from your mistakes! thats all it comes down to...if you can learn? everybody is telling you a clean break is good...there is no such thing! if your breaking away from something its going to hurt! and that pain is what reminds us to do better next time, what not to look for in a person, where not to go. letting go of something is supposed to be painful, never a ray of sunshine! that comes later, when youve come to terms with everything and get back on track, it takes a while, but eventually itll happen. it can only go down hill for so long. dont worry about clean breaks......just worry about what lesson you learned! sorry for rambling