good friends I have bad news for you, I had planned a new set with my beloved Fernanda Ramirez unfortunately she is not happy with the result, (so for now I will not have a new set ... but I have them a couple of photos that could have been my new set skilful enjoy them a hug (image)(image)(image)(image)(image) more
good friends I have bad news for you, I had planned a new set with my beloved Fernanda Ramirez unfortunately she is not happy with the result, (so for now I will not have a new set ...
but I have them a couple of photos that could have been my new set
good friends I have bad news for you, I had planned a new set with my beloved Fernanda Ramirez unfortunately she is not happy with the result, (so for now I will not have a new set ... but I have them a couple of photos that could have been my new set skilful enjoy them a hug (image)(image)(image)(image)(image) more
good friends I have bad news for you, I had planned a new set with my beloved Fernanda Ramirez unfortunately she is not happy with the result, (so for now I will not have a new set ...
but I have them a couple of photos that could have been my new set
wow it has been a long time since i have been on the computer. i have been super busy. my body still isnt the same as it was before i had my daughter. i am getting more comfortable in my own skin though. (image) did i mention my tits are still oh so huge? more
wow it has been a long time since i have been on the computer. i have been super busy. my body still isnt the same as it was before i had my daughter. i am getting more comfortable in my own skin though.
YAY! You love my new set so much! Thanks a lot, friends, for all that sweet words you wrote in the comments, I am very pleased to read that! "A secret place" (image) Second YAY! Today I bought a ticket to Moscow! (image) Third YAY! My new sexy panties! (image) (image) xoxoxo *spoilers* more
YAY! You love my new set so much! Thanks a lot, friends, for all that sweet words you wrote in the comments, I am very pleased to read that! "A secret place"
O.k. so my little brother bought a pretty dope ass fuckin Canon Powershot. He came over tryin to get me to help him figure it out....... Needless to say he knows how to take pics, but as far as vids go...... well I will let you be the judge of that lol! Don't judge me too hard we were drinkin and... more
O.k. so my little brother bought a pretty dope ass fuckin Canon Powershot. He came over tryin to get me to help him figure it out.......
Needless to say he knows how to take pics, but as far as vids go...... well I will let you be the judge of that lol! Don't judge me too hard we were drinkin and fuckin around...... here we go....
Pardon the looking like a donkey's ass, Itz cold and I had secret ninja tasks to do tonight!
They told me to stretch after pole dancing to alleviate the soreness. I don't think it helped... Maybe I didn't do it right... (image)(image)(image)(image)(image) Have you ever had a friend tell you that they have a friend you've never met who's obsessed with you? It's awkward. more
They told me to stretch after pole dancing to alleviate the soreness. I don't think it helped... Maybe I didn't do it right... Have you ever had a friend tell you that they have a friend you've never met who's obsessed with you? It's awkward. I guess I'm kind of awkward.
True story: my high school algebra teacher was a creep and although I only had him freshman year he remembered me for my next three years and when he subbed one of my classes senior year he got my number from another student. I also had to take a final in his classroom on one of my last days of class and he tried to keep me behind when I was done to talk to me but I got out of there real quick. Luckily he never called me (to my knowledge) and I've changed my number since. He always used to wear tight shorts that gave him male camel toes... it. was. disgusting.
i just got an Iphone 4S and i don't know how i survived without it till now. i'm having so much fun with it and i finally enjoy the pleasure of watching new SG sets while having breakfast in bed which are your fave applications? which are the one that you find really helpful? ...this means... more
i just got an Iphone 4S and i don't know how i survived without it till now. i'm having so much fun with it and i finally enjoy the pleasure of watching new SG sets while having breakfast in bed which are your fave applications? which are the one that you find really helpful?
...this means that soon you'll see much more pics of me, i've downloaded sooo many camera applications but for now... ...it's all about dogs (and tattoed cuddles, of course)
Hello everyone, its getting wintry, I love walking to University at this time of year, there is nothing that compares to Bloomsbury in London covered in colourful autumn leaves. Anyway well Im moving back to London. Things have been crazy but nothing awful. Here are some new photos (image) (image) (image)... more
Hello everyone,
its getting wintry, I love walking to University at this time of year, there is nothing that compares to Bloomsbury in London covered in colourful autumn leaves. Anyway well Im moving back to London. Things have been crazy but nothing awful. Here are some new photos
Hope everyone is good and doing well. I need adaventure
Then, too, the pearl from out its shell, Unsightly in the sunless sea, (As 't were a spirit, forced to dwell in form unlovely) was set free, And round the neck of woman threw. From "The Loves of the Angels" by Thomas Moore
As the sun goes down, I hear your Voice is calling me, And I wonder where you are. As rain falls down, The clouds, they slowly disappear,... more
As the sun goes down, I hear your Voice is calling me, And I wonder where you are. As rain falls down, The clouds, they slowly disappear, Still I wonder where your are. As I rise again, I embrace the sun, And I'm looking at across the burning sky. As I rise again, I can feel you here, I have loading to the place where I belong As I rise again, I be frozen here with you , oh yeah If I loose my mind And if I start to loose control, Do you wonder where I am?! 'til the end of time. I will be frozen here with you, Still you wonder where I am. As I rise again, I embrace the sun, And I'm looking at across the burning sky. As I rise again, I can feel you here, I have loading to the place where I belong. As I rise again. As I rise again, I be frozen here with you , oh yeah (2x) As I rise again, I embrace the sun, And I'm looking at across the burning sky. As I rise again, I can feel you here, I have loading to the place where I belong. As I rise again.
by Rachelle Suicide A column which highlights Suicide Girls and their fave groups. (image) [Rachelle Suicide in In Daydreams] This week, Rachelle Suicide sizes up SG's All Boobs Great And Small Group. Members: 4,988 / Comments: 10,300 WHY DO YOU LOVE IT?: Breasts are like snowflakes, each one... more
WHY DO YOU LOVE IT?: Breasts are like snowflakes, each one different, unique, and beautiful in it's own way. This group has everything: web cam boobs, Suicide Girls' boobs, great cleavage, tattooed tits, side boob, under boob (my personal favorite view), small, medium and large breasts. Who wouldn't love it?
DISCUSSION TIP: Everyone has their own personal preferences on boob size and shape, be respectful. This is a positive, fun group –– negativity isn't tolerated.
BEST RANDOM QUOTE: I don't know why but I love seeing a girl scratch an itchy boob, or adjust their bra strap. Call me a perv if you must, I just think it's cute, sometimes they make really cute faces when doing so. Anyone else in this boat?"
MOST HEATED DISCUSSION THREAD: The "Boobs That Made You Join!!!" thread contains some of the hottest Suicide Girls AND their boobs! Very hot.
WHO’S WELCOME TO JOIN?: All Boobs Great and Small is for boob enthusiasts who appreciate all shapes and sizes.
remember when your younger and you make fortune tellers then say "pick a colour" this is what this set is about pick a colour... more
remember when your younger and you make fortune tellers then say "pick a colour" this is what this set is about pick a colour and it tells me what to do hope you enjoyyy
by Mentalrage (image) Arkham Asylum pretty much set the standard for how good a game based on a comic book character and the world they inhabit could be. Previously, game's based on comics were generally speaking either ill thought out, poorly executed, hurriedly produced tie-in's with film... more
Arkham Asylum pretty much set the standard for how good a game based on a comic book character and the world they inhabit could be. Previously, game's based on comics were generally speaking either ill thought out, poorly executed, hurriedly produced tie-in's with film properties or otherwise underwhelming and insulting to fans of both good games and the comics they were based on with very few exceptions.
Developer Rocksteady at that point had only produced the distinctly average Urban Chaos. Which made both their treatment of the Batman universe and it's polished presentation and execution in Arkham Asylum all the more surprising.
Now the much-anticipated follow up Arkham City is upon us.
Simply put, Rocksteady has defined how to produce a follow up to a successful game. It builds on everything featured in the previous game, tweaking things here and there as well as adding plenty of new elements. Arkham City is an almost perfect example of digital alchemy, balancing deep lore that Bat fans will appreciate, but not to the extent that it will drive away gamers unfamiliar with the intricacies of Gotham City.
Arkham City finds a section of Gotham City partitioned off and transformed into a vast penal colony overseen by mysterious psychiatrist Hugo Strange. Bruce Wayne soon finds himself incarcerated in Arkham City for speaking out against Strange and it's down to the Dark Knight to figure out what Strange is really up to and what “Protocol 10” is.
Chances are, unless you've been living in a cave for the last few decades, you'll be familiar with at least some of the numerous villains that make up the Dark Knight's rogues gallery (which is arguably the best in comics). Rocksteady has once again produced some great character designs with the Penguin re-imagined as a sadistic, eccentric Cockney wide-boy being just one of them. You can also look forward to seeing Mr. Freeze, Harley Quinn, The Joker, and Solomon Grundy, to name but a few, and that's just the main story, there are side missions involving Bane, Mr. Zsasz, and The Riddler, plus additional Catwoman story missions which intertwine with the main story (her design is heavily influenced by Adam Hughes iconic take on the character).
The presentation all round is slick and highly polished. The Arkham facility which you find yourself in, with its array of buildings and alleyways, really feels like part of a city. It's a gothic delight that’s equal parts urban decay and neon excess. These aren't just random buildings either, Bat fans will pick up on numerous things like the building you first suit up as Batman in being Ace Chemicals. The voice acting is universally excellent with Kevin Conroy once again being a solid Dark Knight and Mark Hamil putting in another sublime performance as The Joker.
Unlike its predecessor you have a vast area that you're free to explore open world style after the opening scenes. Gliding and grappling your way across the myriad of rooftops and perching upon a gargoyle before listening to a bunch of thugs debate whether crossing Two-Face or The Joker is worse before dropping out of the night sky and taking them all out is a thing of beauty it has to be said. If you're so inclined you can actually spend a considerable amount of time just exploring before even starting any missions.
The downside of this new open world approach is Arkham City doesn't have the claustrophobic story driven narrative of its predecessor, the varied selection of villains are battling each other for both territory and screen time it seems. Though I don't think –– as impressive as Batman's rogues gallery is –– there are many characters that would support a full story like The Joker, so in this regard Rocksteady has made a wise move.
To aid your navigation around Arkham City, Batman now has a divebomb move which can be used either as an offensive maneuver (once you've got the necessary upgrade) or can be used to gain height and speed by pulling up at the last minute before soaring into the night sky. Another addition is the line launcher, an adaptation to the Batclaw which enables you to travel horizontally between buildings and can even be fired mid flight to travel around corners.
Combat in Arkham City is built around the same mechanics as the previous game, but things have been tightened up with new options thrown into the mix too. Now you can use the numerous gadgets at your disposal in the midst of a fight easier. Watching a hammer wielding goon take out half his own men after being hit by the Remote Electronic Charge (a new addition) never gets old. Counter moves are a big factor in combat and learning the timing will literally save your life. Arkham City thugs aren't completely brain dead either, they will team up on you and not just form an orderly queue while you take them out. Also if another gang of thugs is witness to your brawling, they'll come steaming down the street and join the fray. This can result in facing a literal horde of bad guys where you can really show off your combat prowess.
One of the best things about combat in Arkham City is it doesn't fall into the all too familiar problem of tedious repetition. Performing the same few moves over and over can quickly go from exhilarating fun to boring chore in a combat oriented game. Thankfully the combat here is influenced by your surroundings, find yourself up against a wall facing a mob of goons, and your counters will take this into account with Batman slamming faces into said wall until you move away from it.
Stealth quite rightly is also an important part of surviving in Arkham City. Even the Dark Knight isn't invincible, so taking on tooled up goons head on will just lead to a quick demise. Vantage points are key and so is patience. Learning patrol patterns and picking your moment to strike before disappearing into the shadows will lead to goons freaking out and firing at shadows, which will lead to an intimidation experience bonus when you clear the area. If things do go a bit awry you can employ a new smoke bomb to cover your escape.
It's not quite as easy this time around though, with goons later in the game sporting some hi-tech gear. For example they’re equipped with thermal imaging headsets which make you visible even if you're hiding in the shadows, and have signal jammers which screw with your Detective Mode, meaning you have no access to the usual readouts on enemies in the vicinity.
Experience will allow you to level up where you can upgrade your Batsuit and gadgets, and learn new special combat techniques, amongst other things.
As for the Catwoman missions I mentioned earlier, they're just as well executed. In fact they're so good you'll find yourself wishing there were more of them. Navigating Arkham City as Catwoman is a completely different experience as you utilize her whip and pounce from rooftop to rooftop or scale larger buildings in stages. Combat is different too. Catwoman is faster, but takes more of a beating if a goon connects. Her combat style is similar to Batman's but the counters and stealth takedowns (dropping down off the ceiling for one) are more graceful and acrobatic in their approach and there's a different set of gadgets to have fun with. I think Rocksteady may have gone a little overboard on sexing up Catwoman, I don't think her catsuit needs to be zipped down quite that far to be sexy.
There's plenty of other little details like Batman's Batsuit taking damage as you progress, radio communications with both Alfred (with his trademark subtle dry humor) and Oracle. And listening to Penguin or Joker berate their goons as you take them out is highly amusing in a twisted way. “Batman's never killed anyone but that doesn't mean he won't start with you,” quips The Joker.
Added to all that, there's Riddler trophies to find, challenges to complete, and did I mention you get to punch a shark and can hitch a ride on a helicopter?
Well, I have uploaded my newest "gift" to SG. I had the pleasure of shooting with Lorelei on my birthday this year and what came of it you will all have the pleasure of seeing very soon. For now I will leave you with a preview pic. I also want to thank everyone for their endless support and... more
Well, I have uploaded my newest "gift" to SG. I had the pleasure of shooting with Lorelei on my birthday this year and what came of it you will all have the pleasure of seeing very soon. For now I will leave you with a preview pic. I also want to thank everyone for their endless support and love on this site. This set is very important to me so I will ask you for your love once again.
Change in date for the Book, It's now going to be Valentines Day, I feel that is more appropriate, and gives me more time for production. otherwise here is a look i have been working on this month. I'm going for a Diana Ross in Mahogany, Twiggy, Barbra Streisand (image) more
Change in date for the Book, It's now going to be Valentines Day, I feel that is more appropriate, and gives me more time for production.
otherwise here is a look i have been working on this month. I'm going for a Diana Ross in Mahogany, Twiggy, Barbra Streisand
by Rachelle Suicide A column which highlights Suicide Girls and their fave groups. (image) [Rachelle Suicide in In Daydreams] This week, Rachelle Suicide sizes up SG's All Boobs Great And Small Group. Members: 4,988 / Comments: 10,300 WHY DO YOU LOVE IT?: Breasts are like snowflakes, each one... more
WHY DO YOU LOVE IT?: Breasts are like snowflakes, each one different, unique, and beautiful in it's own way. This group has everything: web cam boobs, Suicide Girls' boobs, great cleavage, tattooed tits, side boob, under boob (my personal favorite view), small, medium and large breasts. Who wouldn't love it?
DISCUSSION TIP: Everyone has their own personal preferences on boob size and shape, be respectful. This is a positive, fun group –– negativity isn't tolerated.
BEST RANDOM QUOTE: I don't know why but I love seeing a girl scratch an itchy boob, or adjust their bra strap. Call me a perv if you must, I just think it's cute, sometimes they make really cute faces when doing so. Anyone else in this boat?"
MOST HEATED DISCUSSION THREAD: The "Boobs That Made You Join!!!" thread contains some of the hottest Suicide Girls AND their boobs! Very hot.
WHO’S WELCOME TO JOIN?: All Boobs Great and Small is for boob enthusiasts who appreciate all shapes and sizes.
So, just to let everyone know...in case you didn't know already, I LIKE TO PARTY. I like to do STUPID things when I party. Please enjoy this video about what I did last night lol. (video) ps: the neck tattoo is fake
Suddenly I'm lost inside a fantasy, This secret place I made just for you! This new world will take you to heaven, But the next moment you'll wake up in hell!
by Steven-Elliot Altman (SG Member: Steven_Altman) Our Fiction Friday serialized novel, The Killswitch Review, is a futuristic murder mystery with killer sociopolitical commentary (and some of the best sex scenes we’ve ever read!). Written by bestselling sci-fi author Steven-Elliot Altman (with Diane... more
Our Fiction Friday serialized novel, The Killswitch Review, is a futuristic murder mystery with killer sociopolitical commentary (and some of the best sex scenes we’ve ever read!). Written by bestselling sci-fi author Steven-Elliot Altman (with Diane DeKelb-Rittenhouse), it offers a terrifying postmodern vision in the tradition of Blade Runner and Brave New World...
By the year 2156, stem cell therapy has triumphed over aging and disease, extending the human lifespan indefinitely. But only for those who have achieved Conscientious Citizen Status. To combat overpopulation, the U.S. has sealed its borders, instituted compulsory contraception and a strict one child per couple policy for those who are permitted to breed, and made technology-assisted suicide readily available. But in a world where the old can remain vital forever, America’s youth have little hope of prosperity.
Jason Haggerty is an investigator for Black Buttons Inc, the government agency responsible for dispensing personal handheld Kevorkian devices, which afford the only legal form of suicide. An armed “Killswitch” monitors and records a citizen’s final moments — up to the point where they press a button and peacefully die. Post-press review agents — “button collectors” — are dispatched to review and judge these final recordings to rule out foul play.
When three teens stage an illegal public suicide, Haggerty suspects their deaths may have been murders. Now his race is on to uncover proof and prevent a nationwide epidemic of copycat suicides. Trouble is, for the first time in history, an entire generation might just decide they’re better off dead.
(Catch up with the previous installments of Killswitch – see links below – then continue reading after the jump…)
The conference room they were shown into was a far cry from the cubicle with mismatched chairs and ancient table they’d just left. Haggerty guessed they reserved it for interrogating celebrities and other detainees with the power to make things difficult for the chief of police. Apparently one of the critical uses for the police budget was to provide the chief with a private suite the size of the average CC living compartment. There were two men in this room. The band’s bassist sipped what looked to be an imported carbonated beverage while taking in whatever the extremely agitated man standing next to him was whispering in his ear. Haggerty pegged the man as a lawyer. Despite having been called out of bed in the middle of the night to represent his client, he was immaculately dressed in an expensive, conservative suit with an equally expensive com visible in the breast pocket. The lawyer straightened as they entered the room, gave the bassist a stern glance, and turned his attention to the newcomers.
Woyzeck performed the introductions. Haggerty recognized the lawyer’s firm as the proprietary counsel to the rich and celebrated. Gregory, Mendell and Finkelstein had a reputation for winning cases even when their clients’ guilt was widely accepted. He wanted very much to excuse himself to pop a celtrex, but decided against it.
Woyzeck futilely raised his empty KeepAwake bottle to his lips. Finally he gave up and poured himself a mug of coffee from the carafe on the counter beside a sizable refrigerator. The counter was also equipped with an antique espresso machine and an assortment of refreshments including a bowl of real dried fruit.
Haggerty and the lawyer shook hands and took seats at the polished mahagony conference table, with Haggerty opposite the lawyer and his client.
“Mr. Haggerty,” Ryerson began in his best courtroom voice, “you will please limit your questions to your company’s hardware. I warn you that I will veto any question pertaining to the criminal investigation.”
“Understood,” Haggerty said as Elsa poured coffee into a porcelain mug and handed it to him. “My assistant will be recording, if that’s acceptable.”
“That’s acceptable, on the condition that such recordings will be used solely by BBI and not made part of the criminal investigation. But understand that I’m only allowing this to show that my clients are willing to cooperate.” He tapped the com in his pocket. “I’ll make my own recording, as well.”
Haggerty glanced at Woyzeck, who nodded agreement. If anything pertinent to the detective’s investigation was said, he wasn’t apt to forget it. Client-attorney privilege protected whatever Ryerson recorded, and Haggerty’s recording wouldn’t make or break this case.
“Your condition is noted,” Haggerty said, sipping his coffee, and turned his attention to the bassist.
Elsa began recording.
“Let’s dive right in. I assume that Cherub is your legal name. Is that correct?”
“Right, had it changed,” the bassist answered.
Had Haggerty not recognized Cherub from the viewcast, the blisterbrandings he and his bandmates favored would have given him away. Cherub couldn’t be more than twenty-two years old, Haggerty surmised. His hair was cropped and spiked and tinged with the popular gold and silver. Blisterbrandings were visible from the top of his tunic to the base of his neck and also adorned his palms. He seemed slightly high and, as was to be expected, somewhat nervous.
“Did you know the JCs who pressed had black boxes in their possession?”
“Yeah,” he said.
“Did you know they were illegally obtained?”
“I figured.”
“Do you know how the kids came into possession of them?”
“Not exactly.”
“How do you think they got them?” Haggerty said.
Cherub looked to Ryerson.
“My client has stated that he does not know. Whatever he would answer is pure conjecture and speculation, and not admissible in court,” the lawyer told Haggerty. “You know that.”
“And we’ve agreed that this interview is not part of the criminal investigation,” Haggerty reminded him. “But anything your client can tell me might help us clear up this matter.”
Ryerson told Cherub to answer.
“I guess they got them the same way we get whatever we want — through Shintag or one of his assistants.”
Ryerson winced.
Haggerty swooped in. “Did you know the kids were going to use the boxes onstage during the concert?”
“Don’t answer that,” Ryerson instructed his client.
But he was too late.
“I didn’t know she was going to kill herself,” Cherub blurted. “She was a good kid and she seemed happy.”
Woyzeck smiled at Haggerty.
“That pertains to the criminal investigation, Mr. Haggerty,” Ryerson said, trying to regain control. “I insist that it be removed from the recording.”
He turned to Cherub.
“I must caution you not to answer questions against my advice. As your lawyer, I am experienced in how certain lines of questioning can lead to an appearance of wrongdoing even if you’ve done nothing wrong.”
He glared at Haggerty. “Pull a stunt like that again, and this interview is over right now.”
Haggerty nodded. “But since your client brought up the girl, let’s talk about her,” he suggested. Before Ryerson could object, he said, “She had an unregistered unit, and we can’t ascertain her identity.”
“That was a global viewcast,” Ryerson said. “Surely someone recognized her. No one’s come forward with information?”
“No one,” Haggerty confirmed. “And we’re not in a position to wait around for leads to drop in our laps.”
If Ryerson wanted to prove his client was being cooperative and gain leverage in the criminal investigation, he’d have to cave on this point.
“All right, Mr. Haggerty,” he said tightly. “Ask your questions.”
“Do you know who the girl was, Cherub?”
“She called herself Teardrop,” he said. “Never assumed it was her real name. I told the police that.”
Haggerty recalled the blisterbrand on the girl’s cheek as Woyzeck nodded.
“And Tyler Stelwyn. You knew who he was?”
“We all knew who Tyler was.”
“What about the other boy?”
“Never caught his name,” Cherub said. “He was a quiet one.”
“You hung out in hotels with them for weeks and you never asked him his name?”
“That’s the end of this line of questioning, Mr. Haggerty,” Ryerson said.
Haggerty tried a different tack. “Are you a believer in the product my company dispenses and the services we provide?” he asked Cherub.
“Don’t answer that,” Ryerson said forcefully.
Cherub ignored him.
“I don’t think the government should have any say in the matter,” he told Haggerty, looking him directly in the eyes. “I believe in a person’s right to die as they see fit.”
“Do all your band’s members feel that way?”
“I insist that we end this interview,” Ryerson said.
Cherub reclined in his chair, put his boots up on the table, and took a long pull on his bottle. “Ever listened to any of Zephyr’s lyrics, Mr. Haggerty? I can’t speak for anyone but myself, but it’s pretty much all there out in the open,” he said.
“Would you be willing to publicly decry the act?” Haggerty asked. “We have grave concerns regarding copycats among your fans. Some have already pressed or found other ways to suicide. Your cooperation could prevent further tragedies.”
“That’s very sad,” Cherub said. “But I would not decry it, if that’s what they chose to do.” He gave Haggerty a pitying look. “You don’t grok, do you? We’re no longer one nation indivisible, with liberty and justice for all. We’re divided by age, by privilege. The average age for first jobs, legal ones anyway, is rising every year. The Gen-Ohs aren’t going to begin their careers until they’re in their sixties. Who the hell wants to wait that long for life to start? They can’t afford to live. So every day, underage citizens file petitions under the Kevorkian Act. And every day, the courts approve those petitions and the government puts Killswitches into their hands. What’s the difference if someone doesn’t bother with the formalities? Isn’t the choice already made? Hasn’t society already said it’s okay to make that choice? Who the fuck am I to decry what’s going on?”
“This interview is over,” Ryerson interrupted, pulling his client to his feet.
“Wait,” Cherub stopped him. “Do you happen to know when the funerals are planned?” he asked Haggerty. “I’d like to attend them, if I’m free.”
“The Stelwyns haven’t informed us of their arrangements. If we can’t find next of kin, I don’t know how long the bodies of the other two will be held before the state inters them.”
“We’re out of here,” Ryerson stated firmly.
“Thank you, Cherub,” Haggerty told the bassist. “I wish you the best of luck with your case and your career.”
Woyzeck led Ryerson and Cherub from the room.
Polygraphic analysis? Haggerty linked to Elsa. The old term had stuck for a vastly more sophisticated analysis of human physiologic reactions, such as pupil dilation, than had been available with the ancient polygraph machines of past centuries.
Elsa considered her analysis. He grew extremely agitated when you asked about the boxes. He knew they had them, and that they were going to use them onstage. However, when cross-analyzed with his admission that he had no prior knowledge of the girl’s intent to die, I calculate a ninety-seven percent certainty that he was telling the truth.
Haggerty considered, sipped his coffee. He knew they were going to use the units, but not that they would die? That doesn’t make sense. Did he think they were just making a political statement?
Elsa reviewed the data. His indication of the girl specifically, not the three collectively, suggests her death in particular brought emotions of remorse.
I caught that, Haggerty sent through the link. I’d bet they were sleeping together.
That is my analysis, as well, Elsa agreed.
Think there’s any connection to that cult, the Indivisibles? Haggerty asked.
His response to your inquiry on right-to-die issues was markedly hostile, but he does not appear to believe in the right to die. His comments about the Kevorkian petitions and reference to the Indivisibles indicate disapproval, but perhaps also resignation. I don’t believe he’s a member of the Indivisibles, merely that he’s acquainted with their philosophies and finds merit in them. Overall, he doesn’t think that they will effect any change in society, and he is resigned to things as they are. Cross reference of full interview suggests that he was well rehearsed, knew to some degree that the incident was planned, and strongly disapproves of what actually occurred. It came as a shock to him.
“You don’t grok, do you?” Cherub’s challenge sounded in Haggerty’s mind, echoed by the boy Timothy’s words before he threw himself off the roof: “Maybe someday you’ll understand.” Haggerty doubted that he ever would.
Thank you, Elsa, he linked. I’ll want a full briefing on the Indivisibles later. They seem to keep popping up. Now let’s see what we can get from the band’s manager.
* * *
Shintag Lake had turned the room where he was being held into the temporary nerve center of his global entertainment corporation. To Haggerty it seemed like security measures were keeping out undesirables rather than restraining the occupant. The conference table had been moved against one wall, and most of the chairs that usually surrounded it stacked to the side. The few kept in use were scattered throughout the room and the center of the floor was piled with large cushions covered in costly hand-painted silk — certainly not part of the original decor. Lake’s clothes were even more expensive, with one element predominating. His vest, flared pants, and boots were all black suede. He hadn’t bothered with a shirt; his smooth, hairless chest was visible under the open vest. If Haggerty had thought the leather jacket on the rich kid in the Orphanage men’s room was a statement of contempt, Lake’s fabric choices were beyond that: CCs who might find his wardrobe deplorable were less than dirt to him.
“If one person suggests we cancel a single tour date, I’ll cancel them all. Do you understand!” Lake barked, his com’s earset half buried beneath thick, braided hair.
Two female assistants, of Asian descent like Lake and clad in red suede sheath dresses with mandarin collars and hems slit to the thigh — suede seemed to be required wear for his employees, as well — made notes on their coms as he paced the floor. The four-foot-seven mogul barely acknowledged the new arrivals, dismissing them with a hand wave. Finally he disconnected his call and turned to one of the women.
“Pasha, get me a drink. Then get someone on the line from the appellate court who can make a decision.”
He muted the viewscreen.
“Just the collector,” he ordered Woyzeck. “You and the android remain outside. And close the door! You’re letting the air-conditioning out.”
Haggerty looked at Woyzeck, who nodded that the break in procedure was all right. It bothered Haggerty that Elsa would not be present to polygraph, but he would take what he could get.
Lake motioned his assistants to leave; they hurriedly retreated to a smaller room off the main conference room, rather than into the corridor with Elsa and Woyzeck. Acknowledging Haggerty with a bob of the head, Lake waved him into a chair as he himself sank onto the pile of cushions.
“My name is Shintag Lake,” he said. “No doubt you know who I am, just as I know who you are, Mr. Haggerty.”
“Sorry to meet you under such harsh conditions,” Haggerty said ironically.
“Don’t waste my time with your attempt at amusement. Ask your questions.”
“All right, then. Did you get those kids their stolen units?”
“I authorized it. Whatever the band or their select entourage requests — drugs, women, bloody farm animals if they feel like it — I see that it is obtained for them. Why they want something is of no consequence. I keep them happy because they make me money — a very considerable amount of money.”
“Are you saying that you had no direct knowledge of what you were supplying, or the purpose for which it was intended?”
“Your hearing is good, at least,” Lake said dryly.
“Do you know who supplied the boxes?”
“I employ over four hundred men and women to do my bidding, Mr. Haggerty. I have as little knowledge of where things come from as I do of which delivery service prepared the band’s last meal.”
“Can you find out?”
Pasha returned and knelt at Lake’s side, offering him a snifter of brandy. Lake took the snifter and dismissed her to search for an amenable judge.
“I suppose it is possible,” he said. He sipped his brandy. “But why should I?”
“The recordings off those units provide damning evidence against the members of your band.”
“Clone Jesus is only one of my bands, Mr. Haggerty. In my hundred and two years I’ve had scores of them, and I’ll have scores more before I’m through.”
“But Clone Jesus is the one that will go down in history, and like it or not my findings will be part of how that history is written. I don’t think you want your role in it tarnished by my proving you a willing participant in the corruption of minors through narcotics and a rash of suicides used as a promotional device.”
Lake searched Haggerty’s expression for any trace of bluffing.
“You think you have power over me, Mr. Haggerty. You haven’t the slightest notion of what power is. If you held it for a moment, it would slip through your fingers like sand.”
“Maybe,” Haggerty said. “But Antonio Stelwyn does, and he will probably hold you responsible for the death of his only son. You don’t want that hanging over your head.”
Lake took another sip of brandy. “You have finally managed to impress me, Mr. Haggerty.” He inclined his torso in a half bow.
Haggerty bowed back. “You’ll contact me with the name of the provider as soon as you have it?”
“And you offer in return?”
“What do you want?”
“The recordings,” Lake replied.
* * *
Excerpt from The Killswitch Review, published by Yard Dog Press. Copyright 2011 Steven-Elliot Altman.
Steven-Elliot Altman is a bestselling author, screenwriter, and videogame developer. He won multiple awards for his online role playing game, 9Dragons. His novels include Captain America is Dead, Zen in the Art of Slaying Vampires, Batman: Fear Itself, Batman: Infinite Mirror, The Killswitch Review, The Irregulars, and Deprivers. His writing has been compared to that of Stephen King, Dean Koontz, Michael Crichton and Philip K. Dick, and he has collaborated with world class writers such as Neil Gaiman, Michael Reaves, Harry Turtledove and Dr. Janet Asimov. He’s also the editor of the critically acclaimed anthology The Touch, and a contributor to Shadows Over Baker Street, a Hugo Award winning anthology of Sherlock Holmes meets H.P. Lovecraft stories.
Steven also bares ink on his body, and is bi, as in bi-coastal, between NYC and LA. He’s currently hard at work writing and directing his latest videogame Cursed Love, an online free to play gothic horror RPG from Dark Hermit Studios, set in Victorian London. Think Sherlock Holmes, Jack The Ripper and Dorian Gray mercilessly exploit the cast of Twilight. Friend Cursed Love (Official Closed Beta) on facebook and you can have fun playing out this tawdry, tragic romance with Steven while the game is being beta tested!
Diane DeKelb-Rittehouse spent several years in Manhattan as an actress before marrying her college sweetheart and returning to the Philadelphia area where she had been born. Diane first worked with Steven-Elliot Altman when they created the acclaimed, Publisher’s Weekly Starred-Review anthology The Touch: Epidemic of the Millennium, in which her story “Gifted” appeared. Diane has published a number of critically acclaimed short stories, most notably in the science fiction, murder, and horror genres. Her young adult fantasy novel, Fareie Rings: The Book of Forests, is now available in stores or online.
Interested in buying a printed copy of The Killswitch Review? Well, Steve’s publisher Yard Dog Press was kind enough to put up a special page where SuicideGirls can get a special discount and watch a sexy trailer. Just follow this link to KillswitchReview.com and click on the SG logo.
I'm a sexy, active, funny gal LOL Here's a major photo dump by Instagram from the last month! (image) my fish and shrimp pesto fettucine (image) addicted to red wine (image) shaved (image) doing manual cigarretes as they're much cheaper and life is difficult when you're studying and... more
I'm a sexy, active, funny gal LOL
Here's a major photo dump by Instagram from the last month!
my fish and shrimp pesto fettucine
addicted to red wine
shaved
doing manual cigarretes as they're much cheaper and life is difficult when you're studying and unemployed
my grinder from Jamaica
my almond, coconut, ginger cake that only lasted 1 day and half
another romantic dinner
my hubbie playing the guitar while I sang
dying my hair
coffee au lait
my babies <3
training my sewing... with another skirt
bad habbit
drawing and fashion designing
today was a beautiful Autumn's sunny day and I couldn't stop taking pictures
And that's all folks, but I'll be coming back soon with more updates
From pink to ... dark! (image) (image) I still not quite accustomed to my new color, but everyone likes and it comforts me So, how do you like it??? (image) (no eyebrows, hah!) (image) Many thanks to my friends for the gifts that they sent me! Spooky Halloween card from my little sister-twister Noel... more
From pink to ... dark!
I still not quite accustomed to my new color, but everyone likes and it comforts me So, how do you like it??? (no eyebrows, hah!)
Many thanks to my friends for the gifts that they sent me!
Spooky Halloween card from my little sister-twister Noel
I had such a peacful week. I am ecstatic to say comfortable mountain biking weather is back! I was only able to get out and ride twice this week but it was so lovely to be back up at the Santa Rosa Plateau and on the trails after a long excruciatingly hot summer. The cumulus overlay and the freshly wet... more
I had such a peacful week.
I am ecstatic to say comfortable mountain biking weather is back! I was only able to get out and ride twice this week but it was so lovely to be back up at the Santa Rosa Plateau and on the trails after a long excruciatingly hot summer.
The cumulus overlay and the freshly wet down earth made for a perfect setting for reuniting with my mountain bike.
Some one has a habit of running so fast and so hard that she rips her pads, making post riding pad inspection quite necessary. This is also my Subies favorite time of year..
I had to take my two dogs, Nashville and Scotia to the vet, one to get Scotia the vaccine for Lymes disease. bike season for me means running through tall brush and under oak trees for her, in other words, tick season. Second I wanted to have a weird blemish on my older dog Nashville looked at, as well as a small lump, lumps are never good . (nashville left, scotia right)
The good news: The lump is just a fatty tumor, benign and non threatening. The bad news: The skin blemish is a tumor. The worse news: Aside from the thousand dollar invasive surgery she will have to under go to have the tumor removed she may also have Cushings Disease. My best friend is very worried about her, but I reassured her that if she does die, we will bury her in the back yard, then 3 weeks later dig her up and she will have turned back into a puppy! Its science.
That little bit of sad news aside, this weather has been so lovely to wake up to
My dark green pumpkin has begun its change to orange, very sad indeed.
I have an escaped convict. All I have is a piece of skin under a table to let me know he is on the move. Its going on day 2 and i still have yet to see any sign of him.. Odin has been aiding in the search
This guy keeps messing with me.. First he acts all available, then right when i think i can rely on him, he vanishes into thin air.
If you ever wanted to see a side by side comparison of me the home maker, and me the stripper:
Yay! You found the "Droids You're Looking For!" And, just in time too...Lucas was talking about making some edits... (image) (image) We're so glad you guys liked it. It was seriously a year in the making, but I think our little Rebel Alliance made it all possible. Everyone's... more
Yay! You found the "Droids You're Looking For!" And, just in time too...Lucas was talking about making some edits...
We're so glad you guys liked it. It was seriously a year in the making, but I think our little Rebel Alliance made it all possible.
Everyone's been saying, "Ooh, 11/11/11 you should make a wish at 11:11. It only happens once every 100 years."
I have two things to say about that: 1. Actually, it happens twice.
2. I don't have to make a wish, I had it preordered.
The reviews are rolling in for Skyrim and they're all super-high. I even read one that said, "the most engaging single-player experience ever made."
But, so far, my only negative rating is the CE. (You all know how I'm a sucker for a good CE.) I really wish it came with something more exciting. I don't believe in figures. Really, for the amount of toys and stuff I collect I don't have room for these gigantic things and they're generally never as good as the stuff I already have. I swear, I loved my GoW3 CE, but that gi-normous figure is still in the box.
It really should have come with this:
And, I would totally wear that to class.
I'm also very upset with MW3 for not having a Prestige Edition this time around. As someone who doesn't really utilize the multiplayer, it's pointless to buy a CE geared entirely toward online play. Obviously, I'm not going to buy all the DLC's so I wouldn't save myself any money buy getting the $50 elite membership.
But, that's all valid logic...the geek in me is just pissed I don't get any cool night vision goggles or race cars with cameras on them. It's seriously difficult to downgrade from stylized spy gear to a download card.
In other news...
My doll infatuation is growing. But, to be fair, this is a very special case:
It's so cold here!!! (I'm a poon when it comes to cold.) I prefer it when it's unseasonably, uncomfortably, unbearably, swelteringly hot. Otherwise known as "Bob-o weather."
But, with the temperature the way it is...It's definitely bear-hat weather.
That's all for now. It's down to the last weeks of school and I'm horribly busy and stressed for finals and whatnot. So, I'm really not going to get a good chance to play Skyrim and MW3 the way I want to until mid-December. That means you all have to enjoy them and let me know how awesome they are!
Alright SG I'm updating my damn blog. Casper says she will murder me if I don't so I guess that's motivation enough. Here is a rundown of what's been going on in my life. I've been in Portland now for over three years and I've been a home owner for over two years now. Things... more
Alright SG I'm updating my damn blog. Casper says she will murder me if I don't so I guess that's motivation enough. Here is a rundown of what's been going on in my life. I've been in Portland now for over three years and I've been a home owner for over two years now. Things are going well in this town and I love it. I had a job working grave yard shift at an animal ER which was emotionally draining so I went down to part time there. Now I am cocktailing at a strip club and soooo happy!! I sleep during the day (well kind of) and have more time to live my life. I lost my little boy, Elvis, to cancer at the end of July and that really changed my life. He made it to just past his seventh birthday but it wasn't quite enough time together. My little family hasn't been the same since losing him but it's getting better as time goes on. I have my pug Lucy, my old lady Joey, and my one year old kitten Edward. This year I got back together with the man I thought I'd marry and have children with. That just recently ended and I've just started being able to leave the house again. I'm at a point in my life where settling down and living drama/dating free sounds pretty good. It's funny, because that's the opposite of what I have to do now. Dating in this town really sucks ass. Instagram is my obsession and I guess I'm kind of a big deal on there. My user name is lucysmom if you're into that sort of thing. Here's some photos of me recently....I'm shooting a few sets in the next month or two and planning an SG come back sort of thing. Hopefully my sets are well received and appreciated. I'll try to stay a bit more active on the site too.
Well, I'm off to Chicago tomorrow! Then to Columbus Saturday! Hopefully my voice comes back before tomorrow..I've been sick! Also, I got hit in the eye in the pit at a Mastodon show during Dillinger Escape Plan (I know, I'm so Br00tal \m/), so now I have a blood clot in my eye, I hope... more
Well, I'm off to Chicago tomorrow! Then to Columbus Saturday! Hopefully my voice comes back before tomorrow..I've been sick! Also, I got hit in the eye in the pit at a Mastodon show during Dillinger Escape Plan (I know, I'm so Br00tal \m/), so now I have a blood clot in my eye, I hope it goes away before I shoot this weekend!
You can keep up with my adventures with instagram (@millouxsuicide) or tumblr (Milloux Tumbly) & here
In other news, I'm watching Trainspotting and I just realized I lost my virginity the 2nd time (I lost mine twice..long story) to this soundtrack and The Smiths when I was 15. How punk was that?
That's all for now! Expect a crazy long blog in the future..I'm shooting a multi by Alissa Do you wanna know who with??
by Blogbot (image) Artist / SG Member Name: Oliver / Ortegart71 Mission Statement: My work is an only-spare-time-thing, I do it to recreate from work, from the noise of this world, to make time stand still for some moments. (image) Medium: Formerly pastels on paper, digital since the beginning of 2011... more
Mission Statement: My work is an only-spare-time-thing, I do it to recreate from work, from the noise of this world, to make time stand still for some moments.
Medium: Formerly pastels on paper, digital since the beginning of 2011 using Corel Painter and Wacom Intuos.
(image) by Laurelin “Please go with me,” my friend Leanne asked. “I really need this job but I can’t go alone.” I was doubtful. I didn’t want to work at that strip club in Providence, she did. But I guess it wouldn’t kill me to tag along. “Just waitressing,” she had said, and I agreed. more
“Please go with me,” my friend Leanne asked. “I really need this job but I can’t go alone.” I was doubtful. I didn’t want to work at that strip club in Providence, she did. But I guess it wouldn’t kill me to tag along. “Just waitressing,” she had said, and I agreed. There was a group of about ten girls and the club manager gave us all a tour of the floor, the back rooms, and backstage. It was a lot bigger than it looked outside, dimly lit with flashing lights, perfect cooshy chairs lined a perfectly strobe lit stage, and a DJ announced each girl as they started to dance, looking more beautiful than anyone I had ever seen. When it came time to fill out an application I shook my head, but the manager touched my elbow and gave such an encouraging smile that I thought, “well, maybe.”
She called exactly a week later, saying I had a job. My friend didn’t get a call, and even though I felt terrible I also got a bit of a rush. This was so… dangerous. Not my style. I was still in college, in a sorority who’s motto was “Be womanly always.” This was womanly, I guess. Naked womanly. I was all in. The manager met me at the front door and walked me in, showing me to my dressing room and handing me my waitressing uniform. It was the most wonderful thing I had ever seen -- black lace up knee high pleather boots with lace up matching pleather booty shorts and a black and red striped lace up corset. It all fit like a glove. I looked at myself in the mirror with what seemed like millions of movie star dressing room light bulbs making me glow. All I could hear was the pounding of my heart and I stepped out of the room and into the dark.
I don’t remember when I went from nervous to confident, from being the new girl to being the girl who commanded the room. Days turned to weeks and weeks to months, and a few shifts a week turned full time. I was still in college and making more money than I knew what to do with. I knew every man that set foot into that club, and I knew their stories and what they drank and what they wanted to talk about, especially what they wanted to hear. These men were lonely, whether it be a wife or girlfriend who had settled into routine too quickly, or if there was no one really in the picture at all, no friends, family, just us, just me, a regular girl transformed by a life of strobe lights and glitter.
Soon I wasn’t just waitressing. There were backrub girls too, and when I saw how much money they were making, after one year I was ready to make the switch. Looking back now I still can’t believe it. Armed with scented baby oil gel I ruined these guys, sending them home slimy and smelling of lavender. One year of work turned to two, and then to three. Back rubs and waitressing were now supplemented with foxy boxing and hot oil and whipped cream wrestling on Friday and Saturday nights. The money rolled in, and every single shift I was smiling. I walked out on the stage to my fake name and I worked the room. I wanted to be there. I loved this act, this secret person, this girl who knew just what to say to walk off making a man feel like a million bucks while really, he was just giving it to me.
I remember the night things started to change. My boyfriend had come to visit, and instead of me being able to visit with him like usual I was busy in the champagne room. I had been in there with a customer for over two hours, and I was drunk. The dancers hated when the guys took me in -- I didn’t dance or take off my clothes -- I was never am entertainer. This night though, my boyfriend had brought someone for me to meet. “Laurelin, out of the champagne room, you have a guest on the floor!” the DJ announced and I squealed, grabbing the bottle of Moet Nectar and running to see who it was. There was my boyfriend and a man, standing at the stage waiting for me. I stumbled walking up to meet them; champagne and I didn’t always agree on walking in a straight line.
“Laur,” my boyfriend said, grabbing my hand, “meet my Father.”
I stood there, trembling, my confidence and buzz falling into my stomach. I was suddenly aware of how I looked -- white high heels, naughty nurse uniform with my ass and frilly red shorts hanging out, too much makeup and a fake orange tan. My fake eyelashes suddenly felt too heavy and I saw myself as this man did, a used up drunk girl who couldn’t even stay and talk because I had to go back into a room and spend time with a man who was old enough to be my father. I couldn’t even shake his hand, one was full of champagne and the other clutched a diamond necklace that man had bought me.
What was going on? I left my boyfriend and his Dad at the stage with a handful of ones, and when I was finished with that work shift I scrubbed my face until it was red. I wanted to see my freckles again. I tugged and combed out my hair until all the curls were gone. The dressing room was exactly the same, with all those shining movie star light bulbs and I really saw myself. Too tan, too thin, the line between me and the girl I created at my club so blurred that I wasn’t sure who was who anymore.
I went home that night with my boyfriend and his Dad, and I know that his Dad still has the t-shirt I gave him from my club. He loved it, loved me and everything about that night, but I was horrified. I went in the next night, done up like always, and I put in my two weeks. The manager looked at me like I was crazy. “You’re our best girl!” he said. “I know,” I said. “But I need to get out of here. It’s time.” He gave me a hug, and those last two weeks were the saddest and happiest of my life. I said my goodbyes and on my last night we had a fantastic party. It’s been seven years since then, and when I walk into that club I still know everyone. The men, the drinks, the stories. It’s impossibly sad, but part of it will always be home. As I drove home to my boyfriend’s house on my last night at the club I turned the radio on, my eyes filling with tears. This was really the end of an era. What now? Where did I go from here?
“Boston” by Augustana was playing on the car radio, a song I had never heard: “I think I'll go to Boston, I think that I'm just tired, I think I need a new town to leave this all behind, I think I need a sunrise, I'm tired of the sunset…”
You will never be happy if you continue to search for what happiness consists of. You will never live if you are looking for the meaning of life. - Albert Camus Oh, life, always full of surprises. (image) I feel happy, just happy. (image) (image) (progress) I have new project for my art, i am so motivated,... more
You will never be happy if you continue to search for what happiness consists of. You will never live if you are looking for the meaning of life. - Albert Camus
Oh, life, always full of surprises.
I feel happy, just happy.
(progress)
I have new project for my art, i am so motivated, so inspired, my head will explode with all the ideas and the desires i have. I know i'll succeed in my plans, i have now the feeling anything is possible.
Much has changed around me, in my life, and it's still changing a lot (i'm not only talking about work, or art, i'm talking about my way of life, about myself, about my feelings with other humans being, about my future). Travelling again and leaving Belgium, at least for a few months, is something i'm planning really seriously, and it makes me so happy. As some of you knows, i spent 8 months in Australia 4 years ago. It was, for sure, the best times of my life. Each day, i wake up, and i think about this country and the peoples i met there. I miss thoses times so much.
I begin to feel the need to travel again, the need to move on, to meet new peoples, discover new cultures, new landscapes. Canada is one of those country i want to visit. I'm taking as much informations as i can about the working holidays visa (the same i got for Australia), if everything is doing well, i could leave Belgium in a few years (2 years sounds great actually, as it takes time to obtain the visa, save money, etc...). Until then, i hope to visit more countries, even if it's just for a few days, or some weeks.
I thought i should share some art i love with you:
Pavel Maria Smejkal has made a fascinating series of pictures which explore the way in which photos become ‘our culture heritage, our image bank, a memory of nations, a symbol, a propaganda instrument’. He has removed the most important part of each photograph, the element that has made the image a visual icon. Here are two examples - do you know what’s missing?
Caravaggio was born 29 September, in 1571 and died just 39 years later. He was believed by many to have created a revolution in art with his dark and tumultuous paintings which reflected his own dramatic, violent and complicated life. Do you agree with the French critic Andre Berne-Joffroy, who said: ‘What begins in the work of Caravaggio is, quite simply, modern painting.’
Oh look what i've got today:
And you know, i have a cat too:
And cat loves helping kostarkastor while he's working.
A long time ago in a galaxy far, far away... Two astromech droids crash land on a unknown planet. Knowing the chances of survival are seven hundred seventy-five...to one, they decide the best course of action is to form a rebel alliance. You won't find their lack of clothes disturbing! These are... more
A long time ago in a galaxy far, far away...
Two astromech droids crash land on a unknown planet. Knowing the chances of survival are seven hundred seventy-five...to one, they decide the best course of action is to form a rebel alliance.
You won't find their lack of clothes disturbing! These are the droids you're looking for...
So many unfortunate things have happened to me in the past few months. I'm trying to stay positive, things can only go up from here... I got to meet and shoot with Pulse a few weeks ago! It was a dream come true, I have been admiring her work for years and we have discussed shooting many times. (image)... more
So many unfortunate things have happened to me in the past few months. I'm trying to stay positive, things can only go up from here...
I got to meet and shoot with Pulse a few weeks ago! It was a dream come true, I have been admiring her work for years and we have discussed shooting many times.
The Halloween party at our house was a success. Great times with great friends
Got $31 Halloween tattoos with Kelsey and Buellher!
(On the front of my left ankle.)
Been watching Travis play basketball on Wednesdays.
And he got to meet his favorite artist at the ZEROFRIENDS Garage Sale here in Oakland a few weeks ago!
Last weekend I got a much-needed break. I went with my best friend and her family to South Lake Tahoe. We shopped, gambled, drank, ate, drank, ran around in the snow, drank, piled out, ate, and drank more
And this weekend my lovely lovely boyfriend is taking me on a top secret adventure date weekend! I am so excited. He's been planning it for months, it felt like it would never come! He has given me small clues weekly, but I am still totally confused as to where we could possibly be going. Either way, I am super happy to be escaping the bay area for another weekend and spending three days with my dreamboat.
Here's a little randomness...
If you have any positive vibes to spare - send them my way! I need a change for the better. Stress is not a good look for me
So how are things here? What have I missed? What should I know? What did you like most and hate most here lately? Let me know... This was just before I moved and started working... Not so long ago. I should have more new and better pics though. Time time time... (image) This one is my CV pic (a bit modified)... more
So how are things here? What have I missed? What should I know? What did you like most and hate most here lately? Let me know...
This was just before I moved and started working... Not so long ago. I should have more new and better pics though. Time time time...
This one is my CV pic (a bit modified) !
Still a silly blond readhead
And this is two seconds ago, in cold and darkness, just for you.
Let me know anything that occurs to your head I should know!
so its been a week since melissa and i moved in to the new place. and i couldnt love it any more. just wish it wasnt so cold hah.. got a mean cold, im all stuffed up, and have to wear slippers constantly to try and keep my little footsies warm. but still the best apt ive ever had by FAR. tomorrow my friend... more
so its been a week since melissa and i moved in to the new place. and i couldnt love it any more. just wish it wasnt so cold hah.. got a mean cold, im all stuffed up, and have to wear slippers constantly to try and keep my little footsies warm. but still the best apt ive ever had by FAR. tomorrow my friend edwin is taking me to hollywood, to see about some free furniture a guy on craigslist is giving away. the living room and dining room are still empty hah..
i got jack a crate finally.. and he hates it. which i was expecting. but now when i leave, i dont have to worry about coming home to a bed thats been peed on. hopefully he learns after a while. ive been taking him for longer walks too.
got a couple new tattoos. "create" on my temple and a matching tiny ice cream with my bff amanda. love em.
my big brother is here visiting from sweden. its pretty awesome. tonight hes at a hockey game. (whyyy, boooring) wish i already had furniture in my new place and he could stay here instead of spending a ton of mula on a hotel room. but whatever. at least hes comfortable over there.
gave some of my porn away to my new room mate. she was pretty stoked. i got so many movies when i worked at hustler.. and i cant stand shit that has story.
been a pretty ok week. ate way too much candy.. but melissa and i are about to start doing something called "hip hop abs". it sounds fun.
Life is busy as hell!!! FIRSTLY! dont forget to check out InkedGirls mag, cover shot by me, model our very beautiful GoGo make up by Janette (image) Picture list of what i have been up to: Shot hot & famous musicians (image) (image) Made people do fun stuff at parties: here's the BubbleGum... more
Life is busy as hell!!! FIRSTLY! dont forget to check out InkedGirls mag, cover shot by me, model our very beautiful GoGo make up by Janette
Picture list of what i have been up to: Shot hot & famous musicians
Made people do fun stuff at parties: here's the BubbleGum issue, you can see more on Le Cannibale website
Got drunk and entered acrobatica dance contests more parties
resting in between jobs got tattoed
shot on a porn set (well thaaaaaaat was trashy!)
went climbing, not even nearly as much as I wanted.....
that would be.... pretty much it!!!! Sg wise...... dont forget to check out Clio- Facciamo l' amore: we were so in love when we shot it!!!
(image) Hey there kiddos! It's beginning to feel a lot like Christmas... Eh? Too soon? Well I want to thank Sega and SG for the new game and system: ) (image) What a fun day... (image) (image) Oh that reminds me... Halloween was a blast: ) (image) I was a Bumble Bee. This just seems to be... more
Hey there kiddos! It's beginning to feel a lot like Christmas... Eh? Too soon? Well I want to thank Sega and SG for the new game and system: )
What a fun day...
Oh that reminds me... Halloween was a blast: )
I was a Bumble Bee. This just seems to be the only time of the year I get to dress up and be sexy
Lol... yeah right... I get to be sexy all the time: )
Proof:
Now, I don't want to get too far a head of myself, but... Pulse was here in Venice!!!
What a joy to have met her: ) One of the sweetest girls in the world. I miss her already.
Anyways... I've been pretty busy to say the least: )
so its been a week since melissa and i moved in to the new place. and i couldnt love it any more. just wish it wasnt so cold hah.. got a mean cold, im all stuffed up, and have to wear slippers constantly to try and keep my little footsies warm. but still the best apt ive ever had by FAR. tomorrow my friend... more
so its been a week since melissa and i moved in to the new place. and i couldnt love it any more. just wish it wasnt so cold hah.. got a mean cold, im all stuffed up, and have to wear slippers constantly to try and keep my little footsies warm. but still the best apt ive ever had by FAR. tomorrow my friend edwin is taking me to hollywood, to see about some free furniture a guy on craigslist is giving away. the living room and dining room are still empty hah..
i got jack a crate finally.. and he hates it. which i was expecting. but now when i leave, i dont have to worry about coming home to a bed thats been peed on. hopefully he learns after a while. ive been taking him for longer walks too.
got a couple new tattoos. "create" on my temple and a matching tiny ice cream with my bff amanda. love em.
my big brother is here visiting from sweden. its pretty awesome. tonight hes at a hockey game. (whyyy, boooring) wish i already had furniture in my new place and he could stay here instead of spending a ton of mula on a hotel room. but whatever. at least hes comfortable over there.
gave some of my porn away to my new room mate. she was pretty stoked. i got so many movies when i worked at hustler.. and i cant stand shit that has story.
been a pretty ok week. ate way too much candy.. but melissa and i are about to start doing something called "hip hop abs". it sounds fun.
Hi. (image) Looks like I am staying longer in London... Will be here until next Tuesday, which means: more time to hang outs and, of course, WORK. Anyone interested? Those were my past days, as you could have seen before on instagram (look up fort lavezzaro, and if you don't have one, ou can catch... more
Hi.
Looks like I am staying longer in London... Will be here until next Tuesday, which means: more time to hang outs and, of course, WORK. Anyone interested?
Those were my past days, as you could have seen before on instagram (look up fort lavezzaro, and if you don't have one, ou can catch up at twitter) or at my facebook page.
Shot Yazz
Shot PaullB - such a fun girl!!! And hey, Michael Jackson fans united.
And I also got to meet Chesha again and shot her something decent.
I am trying to convince her of getting naked to SG:
But it gets senseless when I don't have a set purchaed simce August? I am a bit tired of publishing the same sets again and again and beg for attention so who knows if they get purchased. You know where to find them. Hopefully SG will buy lots of my work till end of year, or I might as well just find a new 2012 resolution by no longer shooting. And I don't really want that.
We invited 12 SuicideGirls to come to Maine to shoot a calendar and filmed their real, terrified reactions as the SuicideGirls began to go missing. NTSC format
well tell them I had a wonderful weekend, three days off work! is a lot to me .... I visited on a sidewalk of my town called Santa Elena and I can tell you it's one of the most beautiful that my eyes have seen, met a wonderful person, paint, relax I smiled, and finally I could do a session photos... more
well tell them I had a wonderful weekend, three days off work! is a lot to me ....
I visited on a sidewalk of my town called Santa Elena and I can tell you it's one of the most beautiful that my eyes have seen, met a wonderful person, paint, relax I smiled, and finally I could do a session photos with a friend named Nini Villegas, the permission planning 3 years ago and it was she who took my first nude photos so they leave a small sample of what we did in this magical place.
Additional to that I did a photo shoot for a lingerie brand called Toxic Garden photos and accompanying soon my friend Jaune to make your new set with my beloved photographer Fernanda Ramirez.
The best energy, best wishes and a big hug for everyone ♥ ♥
Got Problems? Sex, Love and Relationship Advice From SuicideGirls' Team Agony by SG's Team Agony feat. Perdita Let us answer life's questions - because great advice is even better when it comes from SuicideGirls. (image) [Perdita in Eames] Q. Hi, and first of all, thanks for bringing so... more
Got Problems? Sex, Love and Relationship Advice From SuicideGirls' Team Agony
Q.Hi, and first of all, thanks for bringing so much sunlight into my life! I forget how long I've followed your site, but it's been constantly reassuring to know that not everyone is hung up on the (double) standards we're surrounded by every day.
OK, here goes…My personal life's been in turmoil for a while now. After much fretting and moping, I broke up with my girlfriend last spring (we met just around my 19th birthday). Almost immediately, a not-very-close friend began showing interest in me. I started paying attention after a mutual friend arranged a date for us, which ended in sex (which, I have to say, was for me the best in maybe a decade, and she said the same).
I'm a responsible kind of guy and something of a sucker for vulnerability, and when after that first encounter she confessed she didn't want to be just a one-night stand, I fell for her. I started spending more time at her place. She told me about her life: she'd quit a very well-paid job a couple of years previously due to burnout, had been beaten to within an inch of her life by her ex-husband, and was deeply in debt thanks to the unscrupulous nature of said ex. She has a six-year-old son with him, who's the reason they keep in touch and are on cool but civil terms. I don't want any kids of my own, but I get along splendidly with the young man; everyone seems to agree my presence has been a helpful influence for him (he was put through hell by the ex too, back when they were still together).
One thing led to another, and within a couple of months, I found myself married to her. (Which is something I hadn't thought I'd ever do, but when the question was put to me, it seemed natural enough.) I don't exactly make enough to support all of us, so I quickly started developing heavy debts, but my wife kept reassuring me her consulting firm would more than make up the deficit once it got off the ground. I supported her efforts the best I could, naturally. But she never really got started; it was too much like the job that had burnt her out previously. We talked it over and agreed that we'd be able to make ends meet if she followed my lead and took a job doing what she loves, even though it doesn't pay well, because she'd be energized by it and wouldn't feel the need to do it in her free time.
Well, it didn't really happen. Her first paycheck paid for little besides the equipment she'd had to buy for the job. It's starting to look like we both need to quit the jobs we love and find something better paid. This is creating friction. We fight over trifles (as well as politics), the sex is dead, she's convinced I'm messing around (I'm not), we're both depressed while trying to keep up appearances for the son's benefit, and she's threatened suicide more than once (she claims one of the times was a misunderstanding, but I was convinced enough that I called the paramedics after I couldn't wake her up). I'm basically having a constant anxiety attack. All of it's looking a lot like what I had before with my ex-girlfriend. Frankly, I've started thinking that marriage may have been a hasty decision.
Now, I'm trying to be as unbiased as possible. I know I have to pull my weight financially. I'm aware we've only known one another for a short time. I wonder if everything seems so familiar because I'm causing it somehow –– in which case I could alter my behavior and make it better? And, most of all, I'm painfully aware that she's put a lot of faith in me after all the trouble she's been through, and I'd hate to disappoint her (not to mention all the people who were happy to see her find a decent guy, including my parents). I have to say I'm a pretty easygoing fellow who hates conflicts and is easily led, and I fear I may have let her convince me to get into something we both wished would work out, but is ultimately damaging.
I'm torn. What should I do? Endure the misery until we're better off and can be natural again? Or cut my losses and go back to being single, leaving her bitter and disappointed once again? Or even something else, like separate to let the air clear and then try again? (A lot of "agains" there.) Any advice or perspective would be most appreciated.
A: It sounds like there is a lot going on here and you seem to have a very clear understanding of the situation, however you need to make a decision. I do think you both need an outside and neutral mediator to help because it sounds like you want to make this work and you care enough to stick around, but you guys are constantly butting heads at this point. If you are able to seek professional help for this, I would highly recommend it, if more for your wife than yourself. A single suicide attempt is more than enough of an indication that someone is dealing with more than they can handle, and she is also clearly carrying baggage from her past relationship. If you’re worried about the cost, many states have options for people seeking help with mental health issues that do not have insurance or the means to pay full price, so I would seek those out to see if you qualify.
You guys are also in financial straights right now in the middle of one of worst economies in 100 years. Believe me when I say that working a job you’re burned out on is no fun, but neither is being homeless, or up to your eyeballs in debt. You also have the needs of a little boy to consider, and sometimes you have to take the job you don’t love because it provides what you need. You both need to suck it up to an extent, and, if you have access to better jobs, now is the time to get them. I understand that it can be frustrating and unfulfilling to work at a job you hate, but this relationship would benefit from structure and stability. As for your finances, you need to sit down, take a look at all the debt you have and figure out how to manage it, make a budget and stick to it. Once you get a handle on your finances and get into a regular routine, there’s no reason why you can’t pursue your interests (together and separately) as hobbies, at least in the meantime.
Ultimately every relationship takes work, and while this relationship may take more work, it sounds like something you are willing to do. So get some professional help, start discussing your issues on a regular basis and concentrate on improving your financial situation, that way you’ll be moving in the right direction for a healthier, happier relationship.
I love the holiday season! It all starts with Halloween... How was everyone's Halloween??? What did you do? Here's a few pics from my Halloween festivities the past few weeks... (image) First, I was Black Swan....I put it together with a few items from my fav store Agent Provocateur... (image)... more
I love the holiday season! It all starts with Halloween...
How was everyone's Halloween??? What did you do? Here's a few pics from my Halloween festivities the past few weeks...
First, I was Black Swan....I put it together with a few items from my fav store Agent Provocateur...
Then, I was Marie Antoinette for one of my girlfriend's shows in Hollywood....
On Halloween, I was Freddy Kruger, but I lost a finger so I was a 3 finger Freddy...
And I found Jesus! Lol...
All in all, it was a pretty fun and eventful Halloween... now, on to Thanksgiving and Christmas!
OH MI GAWD! I feel like I don't even know how to update... I've lost my ability... because life is moving so fast! A lot is set to happen by the end of this year. Including a move-in with my boyfriend. We are both moving to the French capital of Canada Such a romantic place! I'll try... more
OH MI GAWD! I feel like I don't even know how to update... I've lost my ability... because life is moving so fast! A lot is set to happen by the end of this year. Including a move-in with my boyfriend. We are both moving to the French capital of Canada Such a romantic place! I'll try to have more of an update later this week. Gotta rush... Duty Calls! Directly after a shower... Time is flying!
P.S Long live Vice! She was my inspiration for joining the site, so its really nice to see her on the front page again! It's inspiring and I'm so glad that Annasthesia has FINALLY gone pink! She's so purrdy! and Geeky was spectacular! Yay!
All is well. Ok... gotta fly for real. Au Revoir! ♥
I've been postponing updating, as usual. The time never seems like enough to include everything and then the longer I wait, the more things build up SO I cut back some of the fat and tried to only include the highlights. Let's start with October: (image) We went to the Standard. (image) And... more
I've been postponing updating, as usual. The time never seems like enough to include everything and then the longer I wait, the more things build up SO I cut back some of the fat and tried to only include the highlights.
Let's start with October:
We went to the Standard.
And then to LACMA to see the Tim Burton exhibit.
My attempts to relax seem futile.
It got really fucking hot.
And I went to the local animal shelter for a (very depressing) photo project: My own pound puppy is quite the creep.
People at my school like to walk around bare foot...
I broke a window.
My god daughter/niece turned 1.
I learned how to sew... kind of.
I went on a date or 2.
I ate a lot of good food.
I tittied it up around campus.
And got people to put on a cat mask.
AND THEN we went to Vegas... Non phone photos: And then reunited with my babies: Presented some work.
And then it got fucking freezing.
I went to the Griffith Observatory.
Got my tattoo artist to wear a cat mask.
I don't know why all my dogs try to fit into one bed when there's another bed right next to them. And no, they don't normally like to snuggle together.
AND THEN Halloween came: Non phone photos:
And life resumed: Did more work.
Boobs are good for catching fallen chips.
Got new panties.
More work.
I'm so stoked for this but I'm getting it for Christmas so I have to wait...
Reunited with an old friend.
And finally today I got my 7th session of laser tattoo removal:
They used a special laser today that's supposed to get the blue ink out better which is why certain parts look particularly gnarly. They only did part of the blue today, they're going to do the body of the shark next time. It wasn't as painful today but I have the grossest blood blister which is what the last photo is supposed to be depicting. They gave me shorter wait period between sessions though. Before they were giving me 12 months and this time I go back in 8. This session officially put me over half way done so I'm starting to see an end, which is very exciting.
In other exciting news, I start a pole dancing class this week. I've wanted to do this for so long and it never happened for multiple reasons so I'm unbelievably excited to be doing this! I'm so stoked that I'm even looking forward to the soreness and the bruises. I'll probably be taking that back later but whatever, I feel like I need this physical aspect in my life.
I hate to admit this but as much as I tried desperately to avoid this, I knew it was inevitable... I am officially obsessed with this song: And this song too, sadly: Damn you, catchy club music.
I must share something else embarrassing with you: This weekend, with my minimal free time, some friends and I saw The Thing. That's not the embarrassing part. We saw it at 1130pm so it was the last thing I did and the last thing I saw before I went home and got ready for bed. I can be a sissy when it comes to some movies, primarily ghost stuff, but monsters, zombies, aliens and things of that nature don't usually freak me out. This movie freaked me the fuck out. I'm not sure what it was, I think it was the imagery they used and how they depicted 'the thing' (I don't want to include any spoilers with a description) that really got into my head. The embarrassing part is that it kept me from sleeping. It got into my subconscious and I'd only be half asleep, still thinking about it all. My mom and I watched the 80's version the next day: much less creepy which furthers my feeling of it being the CG and imagery and whatnot that got to me.. I have one question for those of you who did see the new one though so SPOILER CONSCIOUS PEOPLE BEWARE:
Do you think the American guy she killed at the end was an alien? I'm torn about whether he is or not... My friend and I probably over-analyzed the situation way too much which made us feel like he wasn't an alien, that I feel like his fiery death would've been more alien-y and tentacle filled. But my sister is convinced he's an alien based on his lack of the earring and not knowing which ear it was in to begin with and he fiancé says you're not really supposed to know if he's an alien or not. BAH! What do you think? Please defend your answer BUT keep it short, I don't want to read a fucking essay on this.
I feel like I may be forgetting an important tidbit...
I also feel like you should be on SG in the next couple days, like, say Thursday-ish?
What else can I say, we're pretty hot together...
As I'm sure I've said before: Sorry if I've posted any of these before, it's hard to keep track:
Last night I made a really yummy tomato bisque. It’s great served topped with your favorite garnishes (cheese, cracked pepper, croustinis, or fresh julienned basil!) and with baby grilled cheese sammies! It’s a perfect cold weather super food, and is easy to make. It also makes a great appetizer for fall/winter dinner parties served in a martini glass
Ingredients:
3 tablespoons good olive oil
1 1/2 cups chopped red onions (2 onions)
2 handfuls of baby carrots, chopped
3-4 cloves minced fresh garlic
2 pounds vine-ripened tomatoes, coarsely chopped (3 large
1 can diced tomatoes
1 1/2 teaspoons sugar
1 tablespoon tomato paste
1/4 cup packed chopped fresh basil leaves, plus julienned basil leaves, for garnish
3 cups chicken stock
1 tablespoon kosher salt
2 teaspoons freshly ground black pepper
3/4 cup heavy cream
Garnishes can include all or any of: julienned fresh basil, a basil/Parmesan croustini**, shredded Parmesan, and/or fresh cracked pepper.
Preparation:
Heat the olive oil in a large, heavy-bottomed pot over medium-low heat. Add the onions and carrots and sauté for about 10 minutes, until very tender. Add the garlic and cook for 1 minute. Add the tomatoes, sugar, tomato paste, basil, chicken stock, salt and pepper, and stir well. Bring the soup to a boil, lower the heat, and simmer uncovered for about 45- 50 minutes, until the tomatoes are very tender and aromatic.
Add the cream to the soup and ladle it by serving into blender (or process through food mill or veggie mixer). Reheat the soup over low heat just until hot and serve with desired garnishes.
**Directions for Parmesan Croustini:
Slice a loaf of fresh French bread into small diagonal pieces, sprinkle with olive oil, Parmesan cheese, and a bit of dried sage or basil (basil works particularly well with this recipe). Go easy on the basil if you plan to further garnish the soup with it (recommended). Bake until cheese begins to brown at about 250 degrees (about 10 minutes).
In May of last year, I found myself sitting alone in the stands of a race track with Sean Astin. He was filming an independent movie about horse racing, and I was invited to visit the production at Hollywood Park in Los Angeles. When Astin had a break in shooting, we walked into the stands to sit for... more
In May of last year, I found myself sitting alone in the stands of a race track with Sean Astin. He was filming an independent movie about horse racing, and I was invited to visit the production at Hollywood Park in Los Angeles. When Astin had a break in shooting, we walked into the stands to sit for an interview. You may not think of them as a whole, but several of Astin’s movies have become seminal films for more than one generation. I grew up with The Goonies, where a teen Astin led his friends on a quest for pirate treasure. A young adult Astin portrayed college football legend Rudy Ruettiger in the football classic Rudy. To today’s kids, he’s perhaps best known as Samwise Gamgee in the Lord of the Rings trilogy. Astin was happy to stroll down movie memory lane with me. His recollections of even the earliest film are as vivid as his descriptions of the film he was shooting. And They’re Off cast Astin as Dusty, a disgraced jockey who gets another chance with an underdog racehorse. It’s a comedy in mockumentary style. The independent film played the Hollywood Film Festival and is now open in select cities, including racing centers like Kentucky.
SuicideGirls: I’ve always wanted to ask you, on the DVD commentary for The Goonies, you keep trying to say a message for Cyndi Lauper and all theo ther Goonies keep interrupting you. What were you going to say to her?
Sean Astin: I was going to apologize to her, because we were so tired. The whole cast, everyone was tired. She was the only person not tired because she hadn’t been doing the movie with us. She came in to do the video. I just remember we were all up at the pirate ship set and we were shooting the music video and we were all trying to not be tired. This was Cyndi Lauper, the great Cyndi Lauper, doing this wonderful performance to a song we loved. The first time we heard the song we were in Hawaii actually, where Steven Spielberg sent us to play a prank on [director] Dick Donner, and he played her “Good Enough” song for us and we flipped out. We just loved it. We all listened to it over and over and over again. Then some period of time later, we were all on the boat and she was really bummed. Millions of people would come and pay tickets to scream and yell at her concerts and we were there trying to not be devoid of energy. So I was going to apologize to her and I know if the guys would’ve let me get that out, they would have totally said, “Oh my God, we had so much fun doing that.” They would’ve been excited about it.
SG: What was the prank?
SA: Just going there. Dick had said to us throughout the movie, “I can’t wait to get away from you brat kids.” One day Jeff Cohen, who played Chunk, shows up with his mom and his sister Edie, and they’re all wearing Midwestern tourist with the hats and camera and flower print shirts and they’re like, “Dick, we’re going to Hawaii with you!” He kept saying he wanted to get to his house in Maui, get away from us brat kids. They’re like, “Dick, we’re coming with you.” He was on the floor laughing because it just was so cute. It was so funny. The next thing you know, they were like, “Let’s tell Steven. Maybe we really will trick him, we’ll surprise him.” So he sent us, somebody brought Dick out to the supermarket and we came back, all the Goonies and our family and friends had all trashed his place and we were hanging out there. It was pretty funny. I thought he was going to have a coronary. He looked really funny.
SG: Do you think kids today still have Goonie like adventures, in the age of Facebook and Twitter?
SA: Yeah, I think it’s different but I’m sure they have adventures. They have to. It’s just the nature of being a kid. Now with the technology, gosh, what we wouldn’t have done to be able to iChat or some of the walkie talkies. It’d just be fun. That thing that people love about The Goonies, that sense of adventure, is something that’s intrinsic to kids. I think some elements of our culture kind of work against it. The world is dangerous. Kids have to be careful where they go. There’s bad people out there so people have to be careful. That kind of stops you but one kid flew around the world in a Cessna who was 10. Their dad orchestrated that, made it work out for them. That’s an adventure. That’s as cool as finding pirate treasure. “I flew myself around the planet when I was 10.” Pirates always have an allure. You have the Pirates of the Caribbean movies that come out. Yeah, it changes, it grows, gets better. It’s all good. I’m blown away that a movie like Goonies has such staying power. That’s a pretty amazing thing.
SG: It’s been 10 years since Lord of the Rings. Do you have a different perspective on it now than when you were in the middle of it?
SA: We just did a photo shoot for Entertainment Weekly. Elijah, Dominic and I were in the photo shoot together and they’re going to do a lot of other cast and composite it together for the 10 year anniversary of when we started filming. It only took about an 18th of a second being together where it felt like we’d just been doing these photo shoots and making the movie together. In a weird way, I think my thoughts and feelings continually grow and change and in some ways, it’s really the same.
SG: When you hear about The Hobbit does that seem like something some other guys are doing, or is it still the same family?
SA: Both. It feels like both. It seems like the same family because I know them but it’s been a lot of years now and their production apparatus has changed a lot down there. They’ve grown. They’re making lots of movies all the time so there’s probably a lot of different crew and a lot of different people down there than I know. There are some people that I know but my character Sam does not appear in The Hobbit to the best of my knowledge. They could do whatever they want so I’ve heard different things about what they might want to do, but it feels like a cousin that you grew up with that maybe when the next person gets married, you’ll all see each other again. But there is a little bit of distance there.
SG: Is there anything we don’t know about those films yet?
SA: Of course. I’m sure most of the really fun stuff that’s publishable has been mined, but you’re talking about two years of people’s lives. It was a pretty unbelievable experience. A lot of times when stories are told, there’s usually an angle on it, so I don’t know what other angles there are out there. I’m sure there are a lot. I feel like even with the total wealth of stuff that’s been put out there, that kind of stuff only reflects part of what my experience was. But I don’t know that what my experience was is going to be entertaining for readers to hear about. What kind of vegetables we had in New Zealand that were in season that time of year.
SG: Do you remember that?
SA: Well, I could never keep up with it then. The one thing they always have in New Zealand, it’s kind of like a squash. I can’t remember the name of it now. Yeah, put that in there. A signed autographed poster by the cast of Lord of the Rings if anyone can name the vegetable that was the predominant vegetable.
SG: I remember when Rudy came out, it was compared to a Rocky type story. Now do you find movies are compared to a Rudy type story?
SA: Absolutely. Absolutely. A lot. It’s sort of a classic underdog tone that the movie put out there. You see journalists who’ll write about movies. This movie is a horse racing movie so you’ve got Seabiscuit, but there’ve been so many movies, every sport now it seems like. We haven’t done a curling movie, but that feeling, that idea. What I love about Rudy, one of the many things I love about it, is that it’s an upwardly mobile social treatise, that if you work hard and you get an education and you believe in yourself and you get a little bit lucky, you can raise your station in this world. That’s a quintessential American narrative. People love dreamers. It’s ripe for satire too. It’s easy to make fun of that but when I’m walking through the airport and a group of guys sees me, they’ll just go, “Rudy! Rudy!” They’ll start the chant. I mostly hear it when people say, “Well, it’s like that. It’s like a Rudy or it’s like a Hoosiers or Rocky.” There’s a group of them and there’s usually lists that come out. Rudy has found its way onto some of those lists.
SG: You must get attention from sports fans and fantasy buffs.
SA: I do. It’s a good thing. Now hopefully horse racing fans. Hopefully they don’t hate me for being such an idiot. There’s good idiot and bad idiot. I hope I’m a good idiot in this.
SG: One thing that annoyed me when Rudy came out, my local newspaper critic complained that it wasn’t a Rocky story because he didn’t help win the game. He only made it to the final plays. I wanted to write in and remind him how Rocky 1 ended.
SA: No, but Hoosiers was made by David Anspaugh and Angelo Pizzo, the director and writer. It was the story of the unbelievably wild success story of an Indiana basketball team that came from nowhere, a small town team to go on and win the national title against teams with guys who went right to the NBA. And they did that. They won the championship. It was a buzzer beater. Dennis Hopper’s character was an alcoholic who was on the bench, all this amazing stuff and it was about a winner. The guys wanted to do a story about the last guy on the bench. They liked that for him, winning was relative. It was specific to him and his life. You think of Patton, at the beginning of Patton he goes, “America loves a winner! Nobody ever won a war dying for their country. They won a war by making the other poor dumb bastard die for his country.” You look at Rudy and he’s exactly right on the one hand. He doesn’t help win the game. The game is over. Even if they’d have been run back for an opposing touchdown, they still had a three touchdown lead. It was what it meant to him and what it meant to his family, what it meant to the people that knew them. You’ve got to be a pretty coldhearted son of a bitch if you hear about somebody’s life story and they tell you a moment that was a signature moment in their life and that their family responded to, and you’re like, “Oh well, whatever.” Should every family’s moment be made a movie? I don’t know, but when you factor in Notre Dame, it’s the first time since Knute Rockne, All American with Ronald Reagan playing George Gipp that they had let the movie be shot on the University campus.
SG: But Rocky 1 isn’t about winning in the end either. It’s just about making it, so I think that critic missed the comparison. He was thinking of the Rocky sequels.
SA: No, but I’m getting at what’s underneath that. Yeah, arguably the Rocky movies, when he goes back and wins in the second one and goes to Russia, each of those movies, Seabiscuit, Tin Cup. Did he not like Tin Cup because Tin Cup didn’t win? Tin Cup fails so spectacularly that it becomes a signature thing.
SG: We’ve seen you play characters from dramatic to outrageous comedy. What kind of guy is Dusty?
SA: Dusty is an eternal optimist and he is a guy who didn’t come from much. He didn’t have a background in money or anything. He’s earnest and he’s fun and he’s a little dumb, flat out. The director would probably be very upset. He’s not dumb. He’s just so confident when he shouldn’t be. He makes lots of mistakes but he perseveres. I think the fact that I portrayed Rudy, I think Rudy and Doug from 50 First Dates, if you could combine their DNA and just plop them into the horse racing world, you’ve got Dusty.
SG: Are there great sports cliché training montages?
SA: There’s a lot of clichéd moments in this movie. They should have called it Cliché. We should have had a horse named Cliché. “That’s Cliché coming around the outside.” Like Rocky, maybe there’s a couple. Those aren’t the moments that jump out the most to me about this movie. This movie’s about little personal moments that you see and happen in little steps along the way. A lot of people don’t know anything about horse racing but a lot of people who do know about horse racing don’t really know anything about what goes into it. Even the fact that people who own the horses hire people called trainers, they go and train the horses and hire the grooms, get all the feed right and the medical stuff and make decisions about what races to enter them in. They talk to the jockeys’ agents and have to deal with all the rules. There’s that kind of stuff.
SG: With this knowledge you’ve gained from the film, would you feel comfortable making a bet?
SA: See, here’s the thing. I bet my house on Friday night and my children are homeless now. No, I got very excited about having a particular system of betting. Alex Rocco who plays and owner that I work for who fires me in the movie, everyone was talking about, “Oh, Sean’s got a system, Sean’s got a system.” So I sat down and described the system and he said, “Don’t ever tell anybody what you just told me. You can’t do that.” And went on to explain what it was. So I bet, I had fun one night, actually for a day and a half of racing here at Hollywood Park. I bet a bunch and I pretty much lost everything I bet. When it was over, I thought that’s not the most fun part. And my brother won everything. He won three exactas, three trifectas in a row and one two long shots. Exacta is two, first and second, trifecta is first, second and third. You can box them, which means you click the box and you play three times as much. Then if those three horses come across the finish line in any order, first, second and third, you win. He won three of those right off the bat, three trifectas which is really, really rare for that to happen. So with two dollars, he turned it into $300. I took $200 and turned it into nothing.
SG: What was your faulty system?
SA: The way I wanted to look at it was just look at their most recent six races and say, “Okay, who’d won the most races, who’d come in first and second the most in their last six races.” Then I would group them together and then come up with little combinations of how to bet on those people so that if even most of the bets didn’t pay off, one or two of those front runners should come in at least third and then that third would pay it off. It certainly made a lot of sense to me but the odds are tricky, because if it’s a front runner, the better chance it has to win, the less it’s going to pay if you win. That’s the guy I’m looking for to pay off my downside if I don’t win everything else or some of the other things. You can’t bet on every horse in the race. You’ve got to pick a horse. It doesn’t matter how good they are. Part of the problem with that system is the horses are in different classes, so this one horse could’ve won or come in second in four of its last six races. But now it’s running a longer race against a different class of horse. It’d be lucky if it comes in third or fourth. There’s the newspapers you get and the betting guides, there’s so much detail and so many different factors that you can choose to focus on when you’re placing your bet. Then you’ve got handicappers who’d tell you things. There’s all different kinds to think about but your little girl can walk in and say, “Daddy, I like Runs Like a Rose” so you bet on Runs Like a Rose with 50 to 1 odds and Runs Like a Rose wins and you just won a ton of money because your daughter picked one.
LAVONNE SAYS: This was shot on a cold and wet day in one of the remote forests of the Pacific Rim National park. Here's my tribute to the wild and natural beauty of the West Coast.
Okay, I'm sick of the seizure inducing gif. and I have lots to share. Magazines yey! (image) BLINK* Magazine by Karen Hsiao (image) (image) Inked Girls w/ our very own GoGo on the cover! Photos by Ed Fox. I've been trying to get into this magazine for a while, and I'm so excited it finally... more
Okay, I'm sick of the seizure inducing gif. and I have lots to share. Magazines yey!
Inked Girls w/ our very own GoGo on the cover! Photos by Ed Fox. I've been trying to get into this magazine for a while, and I'm so excited it finally happened!
Sometimes a girl has to treat herself, right? (image) I've decided to buy myself this body suit and this new push-up bra with extra padding, which makes me look like I had boobs - it's nice to have 'em once in a while! LOL (image) (image)(image) okay I'm an idiot... (image) ...and... more
Sometimes a girl has to treat herself, right? I've decided to buy myself this body suit and this new push-up bra with extra padding, which makes me look like I had boobs - it's nice to have 'em once in a while! LOL okay I'm an idiot... ...and a poser! They look so good I was thinking of wearing them for my next SG set, but I'm not sure as the body suit is tight as hell and taking it off is a real - unsexy - mess >__<
Wish me good luck as I'm having an exam in two days, I really need it this time! Damn, I have just 3 exams left and I can't really fail 'em. I want that degree so much! FUUUUUUUUUUUUU!
Talking about the site, I don't know if you have already checked out these astonishing beauties from Italy. All these girls deserve to go pink so please take a look at their sets and you won't be disappointed at all! Who am I talking about?! Brazilian hottie Mendacia with le vent nous portera (one of my fave songs, btw!). Clare_ with il cielo in una stanza, one of Lavezzaro's masterpieces. LaRedie with the dark alluring Skin of the Night.
Do you have another little bit of love left? Well, if so, don't forget my set minus clothes which is still in member review, with 800+ comments and 97% ♥ ...it's not enough, so please keep on commenting on it if you want to see it on the front page! 'mmmmmkay? Thanks my friends
It's midnight here in Italy, gotta go to bed now! xoxo your Lauretta
when i was little i used to play with barbies and all that kind of crap, but as big girl i always love big cats, big big love, and thats... more
when i was little i used to play with barbies and all that kind of crap, but as big girl i always love big cats, big big love, and thats why caterpillas are my bigges wish, one day i will play arround the world with my bigcat and introduce my psicodelic love to every single speace that comes arround. Making this set was the funnies of all, i enjoy like a little girld what i have always dream of
Hello my dear friends <3 how are you??? I been so busy, sorry for not update, but I'm working on some projects and shooting some sets I think is time for a new profile pic... (image) what do you think about this????? What is the new about sets?? My cute pie Stigmata has her new set in Member... more
Hello my dear friends <3 how are you??? I been so busy, sorry for not update, but I'm working on some projects and shooting some sets I think is time for a new profile pic... what do you think about this?????
What is the new about sets??
My cute pie Stigmata has her new set in Member review today <3 seriously she's adorable also we shoot a cute video for you guys
It’s the very beginning of the new season when the sun has just started to sink a little lower in the sky and the light is sharp and... more
It’s the very beginning of the new season when the sun has just started to sink a little lower in the sky and the light is sharp and bright. On this early evening, the air is crisp and playful as I explore a derelict warehouse in the heart of London. The result is intimate portraits in a haven away from the busy city, as I toy with the early autumn light.
Some of you guys are curious what's going on with the set I shot with Brooklyn last month. Well, kiddos, we're planning to put it into member review at the end of the month so you guys should be able to view it early December. It's my favorite set yet and sort of a "comeback set"... more
Some of you guys are curious what's going on with the set I shot with Brooklyn last month. Well, kiddos, we're planning to put it into member review at the end of the month so you guys should be able to view it early December. It's my favorite set yet and sort of a "comeback set" so I'm really looking forward to getting it up on the site!!
The homegrown hotties/bikini competition I was in last month made it into this month's issue of BLEND magazine. I picked up a few copies last night. ^_^
I was particularly fascinated by my seam lines yesterday. I don't see them enough.
Thanks Halloween 2011 for making my kitchen a little more gnar: spiderweb kitchen towel and glow in the dark skeleton hand oven mitt.
Really liking this new Rihanna song.
So, I started taking prenatal vitamins. I hear it makes your hair grow crazy fast. Any of you ladies know anything about that? I'm trying to grow my hair to my waist.
Sometimes when my life starts to feel stale, I usually do something extremely spontaneous. Wait for it...
Woh! I am drunk! Who else is drunk? What is your favorite animal? What is one word to describe your temper? I use those two questions to help someone pick a beer when they are unsure what to choose. I brewed an American wheat agave lemon peel beer today. Pretty excited to taste it once it is... more
Woh! I am drunk! Who else is drunk?
What is your favorite animal? What is one word to describe your temper? I use those two questions to help someone pick a beer when they are unsure what to choose.
I brewed an American wheat agave lemon peel beer today. Pretty excited to taste it once it is done fermenting.
Damn I am drunk. I have to keep re-typing everything because my fingers are not working.
(image) (image) (image) (image) (image) (image) (image) (image) (image) Now that picture time is over I'll indulge you in some awesome Hesher: (how fucking awesome is he) (image) Other than that, I've been playing Risk Factions like a fucking loser. I broke my pipe but I got to blame it on... more
Now that picture time is over I'll indulge you in some awesome Hesher: (how fucking awesome is he)
Dude if you wanna poke her, there's nothing wrong with that. Don't be ashamed. Human beings have been poking vagina for hundreds of years. Longer probably. Bro! Seriously there's nothing wrong with wantin' some pussy!
Other than that, I've been playing Risk Factions like a fucking loser. I broke my pipe but I got to blame it on my boyfriend since he didn't clean it for me.
I've been bringing my knitting back. I'm attempting to make a structured purse, but I only know how to make scarves so it should be interesting.
I'll be in LA the 15th of this month and will be spending some quality time with the lovely ladies that'll be attending Sean's house. It feels like the more I get away from my town, the more closer I get from people that live too far away from me. I visit people hours and hours away more than I visit the local aquaintances I know here. I should be evaulating that..or something.
I spend my days trying to motivate myself with my weight loss blog but I haven't lost any weight. I am eating healthier, for the most part. Since having the munchies, my boyfriends and friends made a comment that I eat a lot and has been tearing me up inside. They don't think I have a problem with food, but I always have (i use to weight 200 lbs). I didn't mention it at the time, later I told my boyfriend. I guess they assume that since I'm at a good weight and don't look too fat or too skinny, that it's okay to joke like that. I think you should always check with the person first, you never know what demons lie inside them.
Besides that I'm on twitter and kick ass at words with friends (my username is exning)
RAMBO SAYS: Its no secret we've all been waiting with bated breath for a new set from megababe VICE. I didn't think it was possible for her to grow any more beautiful, but this set is living proof. We're so happy she has returned!
As promised, more Halloween pictures! (image)(image)(image)(image)(image)(image)(image)(image) And another unedited teaser of what I'm currently working on... just because. (image) Until next time, kiss kiss Oro P.S.: Don't forget to add my official facebook page! It's new and in need of... more
As promised, more Halloween pictures!
And another unedited teaser of what I'm currently working on... just because.
(image) Hello SG! As I alluded to earlier, I have a new set coming for you soon. Here's another previews for you: (image) Anyone ever read the News section of SG? Well you should, there's tons of interesting articles, interviews, and editorials. My art was featured in The Art of Suicidegirls,... more
Hello SG! As I alluded to earlier, I have a new set coming for you soon. Here's another previews for you:
Anyone ever read the News section of SG? Well you should, there's tons of interesting articles, interviews, and editorials. My art was featured in The Art of Suicidegirls, go check it out here! Thanks so much to Nicole_Powers for making that happen! Also!! I was featured on the SG Tease of the day blog. Check it out! So awesome! Thanks SG!!
I'm working on a new painting right now. Should finish it up tomorrow. Other stuff:
Confession: OK, don't judge. My boyfriend and I shamelessly watched the entire first season of motherfucking Sister Wives last night. If you're not familiar with horrible reality tv shows, it's a reality show about a polygamist family in Utah; one husband, 4 wives and like 20-some-kids. It was something I had always vowed I'd never watch, but Matt turned it on and it was like a car accident scene that I couldn't take my eyes off. Part of me thinks, "These people are insane." A bigger part of me thinks, "They seem happy, who am I to judge." I just know that I would NOT be down to share my husband with 3 other bitches. What do you think? Could you handle four wives? Could you share your husband?
Til next time, Follow me on twitter. Stalk me on tumblr.
Mini Update: I have been reading books. So the internet has taken a backseat. In other news: Naked Pictures! (image) (image) (image) In tattoo news, I am almost finished with my Powerslave tattoo: (image) Random pictures because I need to go watch football: (image) (image) (image) (image) (image) (image)... more
Mini Update:
I have been reading books. So the internet has taken a backseat.
In other news: Naked Pictures!
In tattoo news, I am almost finished with my Powerslave tattoo:
Random pictures because I need to go watch football:
“When I sound the fairy call, gather here in silent meeting, Chin to knee on the orchard wall, cooled with dew and cherries eating. more
“When I sound the fairy call, gather here in silent meeting, Chin to knee on the orchard wall, cooled with dew and cherries eating. Merry, merry, take a cherry, mine are sounder, mine are rounder, Mine are sweeter for the eater, when the dews fall, and you'll be fairies all.”
by Nicole Powers (image) Let me introduce you to a lovely lady I met on October 7th at #OccupyLA. She was there simply to tell her story. Like many people in this economy, she had been finding it difficult to make ends meet, so when Obama's Loan Modification program began it seemed like a godsend. more
Let me introduce you to a lovely lady I met on October 7th at #OccupyLA. She was there simply to tell her story. Like many people in this economy, she had been finding it difficult to make ends meet, so when Obama's Loan Modification program began it seemed like a godsend. Little did she know, it would be the start rather than the end of her problems.
She duly completed all the paperwork her bank, Wells Fargo, asked her to, and was told what her reduced payments would be. She continued to pay her mortgage, but at the adjusted rate, as she'd been instructed to by Wells Fargo. She never missed a payment, and was not in arrears.
However, months later, out of the blue, she found out her application, for whatever reason, had been rejected. At this point, Wells Fargo treated her like she had been in arrears, because she'd been paying reduced payments on a mortgage that had failed to be modified. To add insult to injury, Wells Fargo then slapped her with a slew of interest charges and fees, because they in effect retroactively considered her account to be in default because of the Loan Modification decision.
Her bank then suggested she reapply, which she did - twice. Two more times, exactly the same thing happened. Following the third failed application, Wells Fargo began proceedings to repossess her home, even though she had made all her mortgage payments in exactly the way the bank had prescribed.
Turns out, the Loan Modification process is notoriously flawed and has been accused numerous times of causing foreclosures, as was the case here. Richard Gaudreau, an attorney, explains in an essay for Huffington Post exactly why the Loan Modification process fails to help troubled homeowners while lining the pockets of banks (surprise, surprise!):
The government pays mortgage servicers $1,000 for each "loan mod" application. Studies have shown though that mortgage servicers stand to make far more in fees from a foreclosure than they ever will from a loan modification request.
Obviously this kind of behavior is unconscionable. It's hard to comprehend that a "trusted name" like Wells Fargo would want to force a loyal customer and her family out onto the street in order to make a quick buck on a few fees. But this is happening to untold numbers of people all across our nation at the hands of nearly all the major banks.
My #OccupyLA friend had done everything required of her to meet her obligations, but somehow that wasn't enough -- is that remotely fair? But these days we don't seem to require fairness, never mind empathy and understanding, from the financial institutions in which we entrust our wealth, our security, and our futures. Clearly this was not an institution worthy of the trust this lady had been placed in it. Is it worthy of yours?
If you need to put a human face on the reasons why you're being asked to move your money from a big bank to a community institution or credit union on November 5th -- Bank Transfer Day -- let my #OccupyLA friend be it.
Set in the near future a kick ass group of SuicideGirls take on a religious organization that is trying to convert everyone to live according to their doctrine alone. Features Pin-up drawings of actual SuicideGirls drawn by Cameron Stewart as well as a two page historic story written by Steve Niles and...
Oh me Oh my so alot has been going on in my personal life. There has been this battle going between positivity and negativity in many aspects of my life, as well as the internal battle. The smoke seems to have finally cleared though and I can see clearer and Im regaining my center. I start taking clients... more
Oh me Oh my so alot has been going on in my personal life. There has been this battle going between positivity and negativity in many aspects of my life, as well as the internal battle. The smoke seems to have finally cleared though and I can see clearer and Im regaining my center. I start taking clients next week! I have come so far in school and have learned so much. I am stoked to be able to apply what I have learned but to also take in whatever experiences and lessons that are to come.
Just a visual as to what I've been up to. cuddling with my cat raving out enjoying the view brocoli, eggplant and spinach DELICIOUSNESS!! <3 Happy late Halloween! Me and Michaelangela On that note, there has been alot of growth, challenges and change occuring here. Mich is moving back to Ohio. Although it saddens me to see her leave once again. I have faith in her, she has soo much potential and is making a decision for herself. I am here to give her all my love and support. She is my sister, my family, and she will always have me here. Flip the page back for a second and lets continue this photo spoot. I am a master of peeing outside. No penis necessary. It's all in the stance. Octobeard is over so I am clean shaven aside from the hairy beast that lies beneath. Speaking of hair... my creative version of a copy a mens cut feather hair pieces I made for my Halloween costume. Some recent developements..... thanks to my buddy Michael HE'S FANTASTIC! You know who else Wets My Whistle? Scott Smallin! <3 Some more of that Damichaelangelone action! Finally got photos back from the day we shot right before we went to Tennessee to see Ailyn I miss that girl! OH I will be going back to Ohio in the beginning of December! It's going to be lovely going back home although I know alot has changed. Don't forget to check out MR and give the girls some love!! There are some hot hot sets! Love you all have a fantastic day!! <3 D
New pics from 1 month ago! On my bearskin rug.....i named him george!! And in my furs with my best friend kristy! (image)(image)(image)(image)(image)(image)(image) more
New pics from 1 month ago! On my bearskin rug.....i named him george!! And in my furs with my best friend kristy!