I'm a sucker.

I admit it freely. I make no excuses. I'm a complete and total sucker. This girl I know...we have some history. I wouldn't say we "dated", rather sporadically hung out & hooked up. Anyway...I've had strong feelings for her...feelings that I know were not exactly mutual. We've fallen out of contact for months at a time. One of us will resurface and contact the other one and we'll hang out.

When this happens, I know full well that the old feelings will come back, they will not be reciprocated and I'll go on a two week bender of feeling like ass. I know this as hard fact...and yet I still hang out with her.

Last night I called her and we talked for hours. We made plans to get together this Friday. I know we're going to have a great time. I'm going to get all stupid over her again...and the circle remains unbroken.

This is why I'm a sucker. I'm willing to put up with days if not weeks of depression for one night of feeling on top of the world.

It's good to know I'm not the only one.

I had to read this twice to realize I could have written it about this one girl. "feelings I know were not exactly mutual" is exactly how I would have worded it even.

[Edited on Oct 24, 2005 by Jeff_Fries]

I know it doesn't do you any good to hear that there's another person out there that does the same thing, but.. Eh.

I'm running on year three of the same vicious cycle.

Hey I totally know this dude, I have a good friend who i like and would willingly go into a relationship with which is odd because i have been boycotting relationships. Anyway we have done stuff before even had sex but there's alot of shit like past bf's and such.

Either way still be friends just learn to suppress feelings.

Jeff, I told you, I have a boyfriend.

everyone does this... well at lests boys do

Not sure if the intended response to this thread was a bunch of "me too"s, but...

... me too!

The subject of my similar experience is one I see about once every two months and I feel elated just hanging out with her, but the presence of her live-in BF and their 18-month-old son tends to mean the depression part is built-in.

so.... me too +1!

Hell, I'll be the one to say, not me. After a week of feeling like crap, I cut them off. Just tell 'em, "look hanging out is cool and everything, but I feel like crap afterwards, so leave me alone." It's tough, but it keeps my life nice and depression free.

ummm yup....another sucker right here with ya..we need a group for this or something ...we could call it dum dums

Ride the roller coaster, Cash my man. Who ever really knows where it will let you off?

be well,

ph

I beat you all.. I keep doing the same but to have her screw me over when ever poosible... this past year I actually moved in with her to help her out so she could better affordto go to school.. she suddenly stopped talking to me and picked fights when she realized that I wasn't going to try to get in her pants .. and now she is screwing me for a month of rent...

I'm a total sucker

i'm with you man.

I've been on both sides. The sucker and the -ahem- suckee.

I feel for you, man. I hope things right themselves.

Further, I hope a trend will be bucked and no one will make a post just focusing on just the "sporadically hung out & hooked up" part. If I see some jerk post "At least you get laid. It's been xxxxx for me," you'll get a swift kick to the balls.

Yep. I am the tsarina of cutting people off. I have been used and mistreated enough in my life, and I don't have the time or energy to be manipulated by someone who's supposedly a "friend."

Best of luck to you, Cash. Take care of yourself, first and foremost.

sounds exactly liek me

I think i come in a close second.

why do we do this?

*snicker*

to varying degrees, this happens to all of us.

I understand your frustration/elation, man.

I do something similar, only said person is a complete and total asshole. Luckily, I haven't seen him in over a year.

I had that problem

now I just cut them out of my life the second I feel anything