Cancer

Back in 2003/2004. I was diagnosed with cancer.
After living quite a hedonistic lifestyle , I tended to look after myself, kept my self fit, drunk in moderation, ok I lied, I binge drink at least once aweek hahahah, I go to the gym at least 3 times a week and train in martial arts 3 times a week.
I have never smoked or done illegal drugs

A lump the size of a duck egg was found in my groin ( I thought it was just a muscle strain), removed and found to be cancerous. I had 6 months of chemo and then the subsequent follow up treatments
I had been attending hospital on a regular basis for 5 years and last week I was finally discharged and given the all clear.

My head is in a shed at the minute and all over the place, I dont know whether I want to laugh or cry in relief as I was originally told at my last check up that I was going to be on checkups for the rest of my life.

This was the catalyst of me going into a serious and deep depression last year and having to take time out. In that time, all I did was eat and sleep. I lost interest in everything and I mean everything

But now I am back. Only time will tell, but I do feel better and hopefully the future is more bright for me

I wish you well. I struggle with a chronic illness myself. It means I have to work very hard to keep myself as healthy as I can, meaning I was forced to eliminate all of my vices except for caffeine. Still, I feel so much better these days that I didn't mind making those concessions.

I completely understand the period of depression you suffered with in which you were grieving the cards you had been dealt. May you have a new way of looking at things now and sustained period of good health.

congratulations mate...hope it all goes well for you

With all that back and forth to the hospital and all of that worrying....you probably forgot how to live. It takes time to get back into the swing of things. It takes time to decompress from something like that. But you're here and interacting with people and that is a big first step to getting back on track.

Congrats on making it through and good luck.