the stain of love
is upon the world!
Yellow, yellow, yellow
it eats into the leaves,
smears with saffron
the horned branches that lean
heavily
against a smooth purple sky!
There is no light
only a honey-thick stain
that drips from leaf to leaf
and limb to limb
spoiling the colors
of the whole world-
you far off there under
the wine-red selvage of the west!"
"At the first sign of possible sorrow I turned my heels and ran
(Oh, I'll never learn)
my life is a cup of sugar I borrowed before time began
and forgot to return,
it was a matter of time - I always said I could see now I'm going blind,
it was a matter of miserable time -- but I heard somewhere there was a cure for useless eyes"
I get up early when the sleeping pill wakes me
I take a wake up pill and fill with energy
I power on hard and I check my messages
But I don't have any messages
I take a driving pill and head to my car
I drive around a bit cuz work isn't very far
I call my phone and I check my messages
But I don't have any messages
In this concrete hell, misanthropy swells
In this pointless life, apathy is rife
And everyday I'm here
Just serves to remind me of my constant failure.
Like a Fritz Lang scene
Like a Kafka dream
Here my soul dies between the hours of 9 to 5
And all the choices I've made
Have just become thorns in my side.
Two staring at each other over there
Two once were adoring, now they don't care
Two hating each other over there
Two not caring, love's gone off somewhere
Two screaming at each other inside here
Two victims of anger both unseen
Two shouting at each other inside here
Two caught up in the madness, get out of here
I am just an in an ectoplasmic sea
With no direction or a reason to exist
The anechoic nebula rotating in my brain
Is persuading me contritely to persist
Delirium of Disorder
Bad Religion
life is the crummiest book i ever read. there isn't a hook--just a lot of cheap shots, pictures to shock, and characters an amateur would never dream up.
"There was a silly damn bird called a Phoenix back before Christ: every few hundred years he built a pyre and burned himself up. He must have been first cousin to Man. But every time he burnt himself up he sprang out of the ashes, he got himself born all over again. And it looks like we're doing the same thing, over and over, but we've got one damn thing the Phoenix never had. We know the damn silly thing we just did. We know all the damn silly things we've done for a thousand years, and as long as we know that and always have it around where we can see it, some day we'll stop making the goddam funeral pyres and jumping into the middle of them. We pick up a few more people that remember, every generation."
Fahrenheit 451 - Bradbury. Sums up my opinion of our species pretty well.
"You are a total nutcase, completely deranged, delusional, paranoid. Your thought process is all fucked up. Your information train is jammed, man! " - Brad Pitt, 12 Monkeys
Lately this has been my anthem:
Nine Inch Nails, Discipline:
"Am I
Am I still tough enough?
Feels like I'm wearing down (down down down down)
Is my viciousness losing ground (ground ground ground ground)
Am I taking too much?
Did I cross the line? (line line)
I need my role in this
Very clearly defined
I need your discipline
I need your help
I need your discipline
You know once I start I cannot help myself
Now it's starting up
Feels like I'm losing touch
Nothing matters to me
Nothing matters as much
I see you left a mark
Up and down the skin (skin skin)
I don't know where I end
Or where you begin
I need your discipline
I need your help
I need your discipline
You know once I start I cannot help myself
I cannot stop myself
Once I start I cannot stop myself
And you know
Once I start I cannot stop myself
And you know
Once I start I cannot stop myself
And you know
Once I start I cannot stop myself
And you know
Once I start I cannot stop myself
I need your discipline
And you know
I need your help
Once I start I cannot stop myself
I need your discipline
And you know
Because once I start I cannot stop myself
I need your discipline
And you know
I need your help
Once I start I cannot stop myself)
I need your discipline
And you know
Because once I start I cannot stop myself
And you know
Once I start I cannot stop myself
And you know
Once I start I cannot stop myself
I need your discipline
And you know
Once I start I cannot stop myself
I need your discipline
And you know
Cannot stop myself
Once I start I cannot stop myself"
redclayrambler
I'm lost
April 2006
NOV 16, 2008 06:15 AM