Do you constantly think of suicide?

does anybody else think like 20 times an hour that it would just be such a fucking relief?

sometimes i think about it. but then i realize that i would miss the absurdity and entertainment that comes along with living in this crazy, fucked up world

Um, no.

And hey, despite the title of this site, it's not ACTUALLY a suicide hotline.

Get help. Just not on the boards on a porn site. Seriously.

If you wanna vent, vent. But we've all been through the OMG SUICIDAL MEMBER!!! drama too many times.

i was actually just asking a question, not looking to say "oh my god here i sit at the fucking computer with a goddamn razor blade to my wrist"

and people talk about a lot of things on these boards, not just porn, thanks, so i thought i'd ask. maybe you should chill out

[Edited on Oct 09, 2003 by issie]

edited to say : i totally got confused with what the thread was about. erm...no i have never thought of suicide. anyone that has should definitely get help ;/

Well, hey, you're the one who said you were thinking of killing yourself like 20 times an hour.

That sounds like a cry for help to me. Forgive me for bluntly stating my opinion on the matter.

life suxs at times but we have to get on with it. yesterday was my grandads 9th anniversary. being that my father really wasnt there he kinda took on the role, he passed when he was only 59 of a massive heart attack, it was sudden but he was ill for a while . my grandad lost a son who was 17 and a granson who was 5, im pretty sure he felt like giving up at times but thats just not the answer. i hate to say it but its very true, suicide is selfish ! even more so when there are peole like my granparents that had there son taken from them, you have a life, be grateful for it and try not to focus on the negative (even though i know it hard not too) life has some great times but that always comes with the shitty times, thats the way it is but we all (if we try) come through whatever made us feel so sad stronger than before. you wil start to feel better soon, just try not to over think when that will happen.
peace N light

I saw a guy hang himself on webcam once. everyone thought he was kidding, guess again. his suicide note wasa left up on his AIM away message.

Talk about fucked up a fucked up night.

no...

wow, you actually saw that?
i opened this thread i guess to sort of get at what drives someone to do something like that, what goes on in your head as you're tightening the noose and making sure the camera is set up right, or whatever...

and sorry, shalome, for snapping at ya

woops, double post

[Edited on Oct 09, 2003 by waxangel]

Yes, suicide is selfish. But unfortunately, that's what some people feel is their only choice left in life. If someone you care about is thinking about it, be a little selfish yourself and stop them- it's better than the alternative.

*The More You Know*

used to.

but then i realized how great life is. it really is... sometimes you just can't see it.

you gotta ride those times out. even though they might last years and years.

you will be glad you did.

yeah it was on a public IRC channel and I was watching like 4 screens at like 2am. This guys is just sitting there looking through papers at his desk and typing everynow and then. Apparently he was writing in a public forum because his web counter went way up then I just sat there and watched like 'what the fuck is this guy doing' he placed the chair tied the rope, I was glued, and then just kicked it away. he was about 8 feet from the cam so I couldent see his face to much. I just remember him raise his arms I guess to try and back out but he just squermed and jerked the was just the hanging the whole thing took about 3 mins. I read about whathappen afterwords like a week later on a board. someone cut and paste his suicide note from his messenger. I was kinda just like 'wow'.

Sometimes I go through phases of thinking about suicide in a sort of detached, existential way. But, that's more out of morbid fascination with consciousness and death, and ending my own mind, than actually wanting to die, though.

Anyhow, it's probably not a good thing to dwell on if you haven't really made up your mind to do it.

see, something like that to me is in one way almost artistic, like the absolute extreme of performance art, but in another way i feel that killing oneself is intensely personal and private, and making a public spectacle out of it is all about attention.

I read somewhere that Suicide is a comforting thought.
(It may have been on here.) I think thats true. LOL
I said that to the wrong person one time and they started to CRY OUT LOUD N STRONG! (they thought I meant I wanted to kill myself)


I think as long as its just a comforting thought it's okay but if you are thinking of suicide 20 times an hour- it's not just a comforting thought it's almost becoming a
compultion. (not cool)
My advice: try thinking about it only once a day until it fades into a memory. If you have trouble thinking about it once a day maybe try seeing a therapist.

Feel Better!

how is that artistic ?
there is nothing artsitic about suicide :/ its heart breaking and devastating.

Actually, after three deaths in the immediate family in the past three months, I'm pretty fucking tired and jaded about death in general. If someone wants to kill themselves, that's fine with me, it's their life and they can do as they choose. If someone wants help, this isn't the place to go for it and I think they should know that.

So yeah, actually, at the moment if someone came up to me in real life and dropped hints about wanting to off themselves, I'd tell them to go get help somewhere because I'm sure as fuck not qualified or able to give it to them.

Yes, yes, I know, I'm all cunty and whatnot.

[Edited on Oct 09, 2003 by Shalome]

okay, i certainly didn't mean for this to become quite so contentious, but i guess it's a fairly emotional issue for a lot of people. What i am really getting at is that often life really really sucks (mine certainly has for the past two years especially) and i often think about alternatives (and there ARE alternatives).

i don't think that you can out and out say suicide is always selfish, sometimes i think that encouraging someone to continue in a life of excrutiating pain (physical or mental) just because you want them around is selfish. death is not always a negative. i don't understand life, i certainly don't understand death, and those who claim to probably don't really know any more than i do, so it's difficult saying that one should be chosen over the other. yes, i do have some anger/disappointment/unidentified unresolved emotions toward the people in my life that have chosen the early exit, but i also often understand why they did so. things do not always get better, things do not always work out for the best, and maybe sometimes continuing to breathe is just whipping the proverbial dead horse. or maybe not.

but please please please don't anybody start snapping at each other over something i started.