depression?

I so totally am going to take that advice myself tomorrow.
Im liking Ireland less n less.
I feel like maybe I should go back to the usa.

these kids around here are drivng me nutts- jumping my 9 year old.
I had an anxiety attack today.
I think Im gonna try n find a way to get my medcaition shipped over here. or just leave.

Ironically, being out in sunlight makes me feel *worse*. Because I was on nights for so very long (and nocturnal by nature), sunlight makes me feel sick.

It's hard to explain.

i admit my diet is lacking... i only really eat when i'm hungry, and i haven't been hungry much lately... i'll generally eat lunch at work, and sometimes that would be all i'd eat in a day...

i do also have a bit of the "job stagnation" thing, too... but, my depressed, worthless, paranoid feelings kept me from changing that... i didn't want to quit my job even though i didn't like it, 'cause i have a decent amount of debt to pay back... and i felt like i wasn't good enough to do anything else... and i panic in interviews, etc... i get all nervous, sweaty and shaky, and can't think of things to say.

and i definately don't get enough sunlight...

i want to stay away from medicines, but i'm going to try changing my diet, excercise habits, and get some sunlight... and maybe see a doctor when i get insurance again, hopefully soon!

i just need to do something to shake this!

Hon... seriously... call your county mental health and talk to them. They'll often use an income scale to determine how much you pay. They'll work with you because they want to help you.

Not sure if anyone's mentioned it yet, but the Depression Group here has lots of people going through the same thing as you seem to be. Lots of good advise there too. Check it out.

Depression Group

Many people have had good luck with 5htp. It's available over the counter.

its ironic how so many people hate depression, i love that feeling

yeh, staying away from sunlighjt seems to help.... dunno why.

masturbation works for shaw, but Mr jack daniels helps me out abit, well him and my friend heather, who always has a smile for me...

..or just visiting the guys at the comic shop and chatting bout artwork and stuff...

today was a bad day... i hope tonight is better...

but, anyway, i called the county mental health dept. and they referred me to another place... i called and set up an appointment for the 30th (their earliest available). in the meantime, i'm going to work on my diet and exercise as was suggested...

also, i'm checking out the depression group here. thanks for that suggestion!

thanks again for all your suggestions.

I understand......as this week I have hit rock bottom,,,,,

yeah, if your manic depressive like I am, it can be great for an undisclosed amount of time, till' you run down. Then you can't accomplish anything for weeks at a time. All you can do is be lost in the minor tragedy's of your life, doomed to question every choice you've ever made that's wrong. Like purgatory. So in the end I can't say that it's really worth it. That's why I've been trying to take care of myself, and monitor my behavior patterns. The up's are nice, but the downs don't just hurt you, but everyone around you.

I am a long time sufferer of depression.
Every time I feel like I am about to get out of the rut for good .....somthing comes along and kicks me in the nuts!
I went untreated for years,I know how the anxiety attacks feel , I know the lack of motivation and the helplessness.
I have recently come of medication after about three years. I was doing realy well, until I started getting down and hitting the drink hard. ( don't drink it magnifys the symptoms) I hate the effects of the medication and I refuse to go back on it!
Last week I had a hypnotherapy session, it was better than any counciling or time with a shrink I have ever had.(check out my thead in lifstyles.. I have 3 more sessions to do and will be posting updates there)
My advice...
1. spend lots of time around friends
2. try to eat well. make sure you don't skip meals.
3. keep active, do exercise it helps to produce endorphins.
4. do things that make you happy and try to remember good/fun times in your life as often as possible.
5. get help! the earlier you start working on this the sooner and easier you will get better.
6. From personal experience ...try alteratives to conventional drugs (counciling/hypnotherapy/accupuncture) etc. diet can help alot too.