I don't know...

I don't know if I'm posting this in the right place. I don't know why I'm posting this. But this just came out of my head for one reason or another and I want to let it out.

I'm judging myself against who I'm "supposed" to be. "Normal" people say and do these things. They play in a band. They work hard in school. They have a good job. They go to clubs on the weekend. That isn't me. I don't like clubs. I hate my job and don't get paid nearly enough. I hate "The Wizzard of Oz," which everyone claims to love so much even though it's the lamest fucking movie. I'm afraid people will see me as boring, but I shouldn't be. Maybe I am boring, but so are they. I hold back because I don't think I'll say the right thing even though I "know" there is no such thing as the "correct thing to say." It makes me wonder how many friends I'd have right now if I just talked to random people who've looked interesting over the years even though I had nothing to say.

Last night I went to a bookstore alone. It was a Friday night and that was the best thing I could come up with to do. On the way I walked past a bunch of clubs and bars and saw all these people laughing and talking too loud and having a good time. It made me wonder what I was missing out on, but at the same time I knew I wouldn't be having much fun if I were in there. It's not my scene. But it seems that I miss out on meeting so many people because I don't go in for that sort of thing. I spend my Friday nights in Borders. Or sitting home alone watching a movie. Maybe the only reason people go to clubs is because they're bored like me and couldn't think of anything better to do either.

I don't want advice or sympathy. I know what my problem is and know what I have to do to "fix" it. I just wanted to get this out into the world in case anyone else feels the same way and wanted to know they weren't alone.

uhh...I consider myself pretty normal...and I don't go to clubs, play in a band, I did NOT work hard in school, abd I don't particularly like The Wizard of Oz.

I also happen to think that spending a Firday night in a bookstore is a pefectly normal thing to do.

Sounds to me like you've confused your feeling of missing out on something with not being "normal".

Everyone's "normal" is something different. The more people you meet and interact with, the more you'll realize that no one is "normal."

the book is better

sounds you need some sex

The funny thing is I KNOW that nobody is normal. I guess I just don't have the real world experience to back it up.

hahahaha.....you can tell, huh?

Everyone seems normal until you get to know them.

Dude, I know lots of people who enjoy training for marathons, others who enjoy skydiving, others who are active in their church, others who spend all night doing coke in after hours clubs, others who play video games for endless hours. I don't enjoy those things.

Sometimes I accompany them because I do get joy in other people enjoying their lives and hobbies, and also because I like being alone in crowds.

Be true to yourself. Although I think the real issue is not interests, it is feeling lonely. Stop self loathing. Make friends with common interests.

What do you like that you think makes you unique, that is probably a better idea for a thread.

saran wrap will bind you into normalcy. unless you don't need bindings.

when a teacher is needed, she appears.

I always feel that I am going to say something inappropriate. I censor myself constantly to what I believe everyone else's standards are because I don't want to offend anyone. I always want to talk about subjects that seem to make everyone uncomfortable/depressed. I am not talking shock value here, just everyday shit like politics, the state of the world etc.

I pretend to be excited about my new job to everybody (because that's what they want me to be) when really I am dreading it and feel like my life is over.

I hate sport in all its forms.

I'm not interested in many things that women are supposed to love, like dresses, jewellery, weddings and shoes. I will never understand why those things are so special to my friends.

I feel like everybody knows more about everything than I do. I can't do simple shit, like sew a button or hem up a pair of pants. I feel like the friends I have know me way better than I know them and I often wonder why they like me at all.

I also feel completely normal in every way. I don't think I am terribly different to anyone else. I do think I know myself pretty well though and have little self-deception which I think is the only real difference (if any) between me and most other people.

(I loved TWoO.)

Have you tried watching "The Wizard of Oz" while playing David Hasselhoff's "Jump in My Car"?



It like, totally syncs up, man. It's pretty fucking trippy.

I don't think many people take much time to really get to know themselves. I think I've spent a little too much time getting to know myself....So much so that I tend to neglect my relationships.

One of my favorite quotes is "the unexamined life is not worth living" by Socrates....At least, I think that's who said it.

I want to know where these normal people are.

I will not hurt them. (pockets knife) ahem.

so, ah, when you to said generic chain bookstore, did you just read or are you so anxiety-stricken that you just sat in the parking lot?

I think you should reread your post and respond as if someone else wrote it. clear it from your mind and give yourself new and fresh advice. I promise you that NO ONE who has responded so far fits your description of a normal person. I think you have an unrealistic standard to live up to and you're scaring yourself into not participating with life.

I love going out and talking to random people it's one of "my things".

Now being the age I am I really could care less what people think or say about me (to a point) so I really have to live my life for me (again to a point). I've met a lot of great and not so great people along the way.

So the advice is just be yourself.

Dude, you and I live the same life.

holy crap! delete all traces, before homeland security is notified

And I love being chatted up by random people, you guys rule. Makes a bad day nice and a nice one a little nicer.

The reason I wrote it was to clear it from my mind. It's what I do when I start overthinking things.